[ nuw ] ul's petite lifeprint.

2009-01-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

I made this video playlist at myflashfetish.com

2008-12-31T00:40:00.004+08:00

upcoming year resolution..

1. i want to collect more vampy book series.

2. be someone.

3. earn some cash to spend.

4. save up for dubai trip.

5. create new blog.

5. delete this one. ( coz its being to... )

6. etc. etc..

10****. lastly i want AARON PERRY JOHNSON as my boyfriend..

( i dare sweear i'll be true to only you, aaron!! tt's if i were to be yr girl luhh of coz.)

2008-12-20T02:24:00.005+08:00

A week has pass.

And holiday has all with a great start.

With much enthusiast.

Thus whenever there's a good time.

there's always bad times too.

So basically.

I had a super bad fall.

And my body is filled with bruises.

Will update next week with photos.

Iam off to my usual vacation.

Where i'll meet up with those i missed terribly.

Plus many loved ones.

Timmy and Marcus are going to be around.

Plus Danish.

the perfect christmas gift though.

which i've longed for...

well.

see you mates around.

Sorry if iam not there when some of you need me.

Coz guess i am much to much self-proned.

" to my baby.

this may be short.

But all the best for you performances later.

I know you'll do wonders.

Coz you always did.

I love you.

Best of luck."

xoxo.

Nuw'l.

2008-12-11T02:25:00.003+08:00

My favourite Character in Twillight saga.

Male.

[ Dr. Carlisle Cullen with wife, Esme. ]

Carlisle Cullen (also known as Stregoni Benefici)

was born in 1640 to an Anglican pastor in London, England. His mother died giving birth to him and was raised by his father who believed in the existence of vampires, witches, and werewolves and led hunts. He put his son in charge of the hunts although at first, he was a failure. However, Carlisle found a coven of vampires living in the sewers and he lead an attack on the vampires.After crossing paths with a savage and rather thirsty vampire, he was bitten and turned three days later. Carlisle, disgusted by his own existence tried many ways of destroy himself, but to no avail. After trying to starve himself, he came across a wild animal and his thirst overpowered him. Carlisle discovered he could survive off animal blood rather than human, creating a new way for the vampires to exist unnoticed among humans.Carlisle studied in many areas but chose to stick to medicine. He works in Forks hospital and is almost completely unaware of the appeal human blood holds for him, but only after hundreds of years of practice. When the Spanish Influenza broke out in the early 1900's, Carlisle came across a dying teenager who had been orphaned by the pandemic. Overcome with the need for companionship, Carlisle stole him away and turned him, beginning his family, the boy was named Edward.Carlisle now has a wife, Esme, and five "adopted children": Edward, Alice, Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper. Carlisle is described as being tall, blond, and the look-alike of a model. He stands "6'2" and is slender yet muscular. He is physically 23 years old.

Female.

[ Alice Cullen with husband, Jasper ]

Alice Cullen (born Mary Alice Brandon)

is the adopted daughter of Carlisle and Esme, adoptive sister of Edward, Rosalie, and Emmett, and wife of Jasper. Alice is described as being petite and pixie-like at 4'10", with a graceful gait and hair that is short, spiky, and black. Her special ability is to see the future, an enhanced version of her ability to have premonitions as a human. However, her ability is limited; she is only able to see the outcome of a decision once it is made. Due to this, decisions made in the spur of the moment can not be foreseen. Alice can see futures involving humans and vampires, though is unable to see the futures of werewolves or half-breeds, such as Renesmee. In Breaking Dawn, Alice theorizes that she can see vampires very clearly because she is one, can see humans somewhat less clearly because she was one, and cannot see werewolves or half-breeds because she never was one. Alice is portrayed as being bubbly and optimistic, and loves and cares for Bella like a sister. Her hobbies include shopping, make-overs, and throwing parties. Alice's early history is very vague, as she remembers nothing of her human life and woke up alone as a vampire. It is eventually revealed that she was born around 1901 in Biloxi, Mississippi, and was kept in an asylum because she had premonitions. Alice was changed by an old vampire who worked at the asylum in order to protect her from James, a tracker vampire who was hunting her. After doing some research, Alice found her grave and discovered that the date on her tombstone matched the date of her admission to the asylum. Through her research she additionally discovered that she had a little sister named Cynthia, and that Cynthia's daughter, Alice's niece, was still alive in Biloxi.Throughout Twilight, Alice uses her ability to see the future and help Bella when she is in danger. The two soon become friends, loving each other like sisters. In New Moon, Alice foresees Bella jumping off a cliff and assumes she is trying to commit suicide, though Bella actually was partaking in the sport of cliff diving. Rosalie, believing Bella to be dead, informs Edward. After discovering the truth, Alice accompanies Bella to Italy to stop Edward from killing himself. They are successful, but are taken to see the Volturi, who act as police of the vampire world. Through Alice's premonitions, Aro is able to see that Bella will eventually become a vampire and invites her, Alice, and Edward to stay with them. They all refuse and return to Forks. In Eclipse, Alice, who proves to be an adept fighter, joins in the fight to destroy a group of rampaging newborn vampires, created by Victoria in an effort to take revenge on Edward. Alice acts as Bella's maid of honor at her wedding in Breaking Dawn and helps with Renesmee until leaving to search out a crossbreed after the Volturi plan to destroy Renesmee, believing her to be an immortal child. Alice is successful and the Volturi, not seeing a threat, leave.

2008-12-10T23:24:00.002+08:00

there's things in life i just can't get over with.
COMMITMENTS beat the guts out of me. BOUNDARIES sends chills down my spine.LOVE always sending butterflies in my stomach. I just can't stand the idea of getting head over heels in love without the consequences that awaits you in the end. Iam not trying to fool those who love me. Thus I want them to know that i love the love. Thus, i would love to be loved. But just i am plain fickled.

2008-12-09T23:58:00.003+08:00

iam craving for some stuffs badly.
i hardly have any idea, hw to really save up and get all the things i want at the same time.With the sales tt were due this christmas. I ought to pamper myself with gifts like no other. With the absence of Halfie, i know well that i have to manage alot on my own. Things ain't like it were before. And i have to adapt to that change real bad.But ive managed so much so far. Thus i wonder the difference when he was around. ARHHHGG!!

My craving list.

1. Some oxford looking lace up formal heels.

ii.

iii. ( prefered in black )

2. A leather biker jacket.

ii.

iii.

3. Some formal looking top to match with leather bottoms.

ii.

iii.

2008-12-07T23:56:00.005+08:00

"Personal affection is a luxury you can have only after all your enermies are eliminated. Until then,everyone you love is a hostage,sapping your courage and corrupting your judgement."

Orson Scott Card.

Empire.

2008-12-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

Salut! mes ami. laughs**

I am literally donw with ECLIPSE and now starting on the last of the

TWILIGHT SAGA ; breaking dawn.

ECLISPE ends off with Bella agreeing to Edward's idea of getting married before they try to have... So yeah! And she sounds so despo. Wanting so much. Cause she knows that once she become immortal, she'll be not able to have her own kids. Just like Esme and Claliste plus Emmett and Rosaline. . . After all the putting up of both sides; the pack and the Cullens. They teamed up to get rid of the new borns that was lead by Victoria. Lead to kill the one and only human that mattered to Edward and Jacob most; Isabella Swan. " A mate for a mate." Somehow, James was Victoria's mate. And In the first series; Twilight itself, the Cullens had to kill James due to his lithe tracking sense and the idea of him killing Bella. So yeah! Revenge was sweet. In Eclipse, i find Bella a little to fickle. When she says she loves Edward and she also love Jacob too. How can that be possible when she knows for sure that Edward was the one she can't live without. And had plans for the future with. She's being very undecisive. Which leads to Jacob trying so hard to win her over Edward. Wth!! Fark right. But well Jacob was not being easy too. Manipulating her with all that he knows . All i can say is, Jacob was playing is cards well. But the hero never failed to be up to expectations. With him being really understanding and all. To perfect sometimes to be true. But well. I guess iam in love with this fictional character. Stephenie Meyer did really bring the super good lover in him.

How i wish it was as easy in real life. Eternity Lovers. "Till the end of time."

2008-12-06T02:09:00.002+08:00

Its 2:09Am and I can't bring myself to my land of all dream. I was bonded by the existance of ECLIPSE. Hence making me wanting to go on reading with no ends till i actually feel tired and drag myself to do something else. Like now. Updating my blog. I was so out of my usual routine thanks to this book series, TWILLIGHT. I didnt find the need to read the furst book as i was so sure of what was the events that took place. Right after i finish watching the movie. This itch to know more of what is going to happen in the next book, leads me to buying the whole series till the last one.

I finish NEW MOON which was the 2nd book, four days after purchasing it at Times. Leading me too much. I was frustrated as i couldn't get my hands on the 3rd book ; ECLIPSE.

Thanks to Halfie for being so thoughtful. He went almost around the book stores in town in search for the book. Much to my surprise. He had his hands on it before i were even in Kinokuniya last thursday. I love him for being so fast and updated. He knows how to really impress me. Urghs. Sending chills down my spine. The thought of being with him all over again fears me. Coming upfront with commitments. Back to square one AGAIN. Iam scared. Much apologies to you of course. It's not that i saying that i don't want to be loved by you again. But it's just that the moment we part, kept on haunting me. I don't want to have to pick up the broken pieces all bit by bit like before. The chances of history repeating itself was damn high. And I blog about this cause i think you ought to give it a thought. We do have options. And you know how i work through things. I ve not changed much since you last disappear. I am still that Nuw. Ohh la la~ Lets not bring past into the present anymore. The book. The book. And now. It was last Thursday that i got my hands on the ECLIPSE book. And it have been 3 days already since i start reading it. Ohh well I am left with only 3more chapters till the end of this 3rd series. Yaaahoooooo~ Ohhyeahhh. Yipppeeee Yipeeee Yeah.!! Super happy to the last series offhand. Thanks to Halfie again. ha ah... I promised to treat him to some dinner at swensen eventhough he seems to not like the idea. I am sure he don't mind me paying the bills this once, right?! Evil laughterr**

Much Apologies if i hurt any soul out there. Including Mister Halfie of course.

But Iam who i am. No change.

Errrr..

I hate it when i have to admit the fact that i actually miss some people out there.

The ones that's out of sight.

Till we meet during summer break.

My Mister Nishy.

My Kor Timmy.

&& Of course.

That scandal;

Mister Draky.

xoxo.

Nuwul.

2008-12-03T22:33:00.001+08:00

2008-12-02T17:11:00.005+08:00

wahhh i can't believe that i have forgotten about

my all-time favourite bassist's birthday. ha ha.

It was like 2 days back. On the 30th of November.

Nevertheless i love him much too much.

Dougie Lee Poynter.

Dougie turns 21 this year.

2008-12-01T01:13:00.002+08:00

The End:

"Come for a walk with me," he suggested in an unemotional voice,taking my hand.

I didnt answer. I couldnt think a way to protest,but i instantly knew that i wanted to. I didnt like this. This is bad, this is very bad, the voice in my head repeated again and again.

But he didnt wait for an answer. He ulled me along toward the east side of the yard, where the forest encroached. I followed unwillingly, trying to think through the panic. It was what i wanted, i reminded myself. The chance to talk it all though. So why was the panic choking me.

We'd gone only a few steps into the trees when he stopped. We were barely on the trail -- I could still see the house.

Some walk.

Edward leaned against a tree and stared at me,his expression unreadable.

"Okay,let's talk," I said. It sounded braver than it felt.

He took a deep breath.

"Bella we're leaving."

I took a deep breath,too. This was an acceptable option. I though i was prepared. But i still had to ask..

"Why now? Another year--"

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks,after all? Calisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd havee to start over soon regardless."

His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace. Why did we have to leave if they were going? i stared at him, trying to understand what he meant.

He stared back coldly.

With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd missunderstood.

"When you say we--," I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it. He waited without any sign of impatience. It took a few minutes before i could speak.

"Okay," I said."I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going.... It's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm not good forr you, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous."I wanted to sound angry,but it sounded like I was begging. " You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you," he said grimly.

"What happend to Jasper--- that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right," he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected."

"You promised! In pheonix, you promised that you would stay---"

"As long as that was best for you," he interupted to correct me.

"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of me -- somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Calisle tolde me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't car! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you -- it's yours already!"

He took a deep breath and stared,unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder -- like the liquid gold had frozen solid.

"Bella, I dont want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.

There was a pause as i repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.

" You ....don't..... want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in the order.

"No!"

I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like topaz -- hard and clear and very deep.
......

" Well, that changes things." I was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded...

...

He looked away into the trees as he spoke again.

"Of course, I'll love you .... in a way. But what happened the other night made me realized that it's time for a change. Because I'm... tired of pretending to be something iam not, Bella. I am not human." He looked back, and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human.

"I've let this go on much too long , and I'm sorry for that."

"Don't!" My voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins. "Don't do this."

...

"You're not good for me, Bella." He turned his ealier words round , and so i had no argument. How well I knew that i wasn't good enough for him.

...

"If.... that's what you want."

He nodded. once.

....

"I would like to ask one favor ,though, if that's nto too much, " he said.

...

"Anything," I vowed, my voice faintly stronger.

As I watched, his frozen eyes melted. The gold became liquid again, molten, burning down into mine with an intensity that was overwhelming.

"Don't do anything reckless and stupid." he ordered, no longer detached. "Do you understand what I'm sayiing?"

I nodded hopelessly.

His eyes cooled, the distance returned "I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you. Take care of yourslef--- for him."

I nodded again. "I will," i whispered.

He seemed to relax just a little.

"And I'll make a promise in return," he said.

"I promise that this will be the last tiem you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

....

....

He smiled gently. "Don't worry. You're human - your memory is no more than a sieve. Tiem heals all wounds for your kind."

"And your memories?" I asked. It sounded like there was something stuck in my throat , like I was choking.

"Well"- he hesitated for a short second - " I won't forget, But my kind ... we're very easily distracted." He smiled ; the smiled was tranquil and it did not touch his eyes.

He took a step away from me. "That's everything, I suppose. We won't bother you again."

.....

.....

"Goodbye Bella," he said in the same quiet, peaceful voice.

"Wait!" I choked out the word, reaching for him, willing my deadened legs to carry me forward.

I though he was reaching out for me, too. But his cold hands locked around my wrist and pinned them to my sides. He leaned down, and pressed his lips very lightly to my forehead for the briefest instant. My eyes closed.

" Take care of yourself," he breathed, cool against my skin.

There was a light, unnatural breeze. My eyes flashed open. The leaves on a small vine maple shuddered with the gentle wind of his passage.
He was gone.

2008-11-28T02:58:00.006+08:00

[ The way he looked at her..Awww!! ]

[ Being too-protective over Belle.]

[ The Abilities known. ]

[ Edward Cullen a.k.a Robert Pattinson ]

[ P.s He look way charming in the movie then life. ]

[ Cool or what! Focus on Edward, he's eyeing Belle. And hey he looked gorgeous. ]

[ The fire in them that keeps on burning. ]

[ The end that leads to many look forwards. ]

cries.let me tell you mates something. Iam literally addicted to Twillight. Ive watch the movie. And once it's released in Singapore, i'll watch it again. Hopefully with someone worth watching with. Laughs* It super nice. Sweet plus romantic. Vampires are devoted lovers that never die. They are beings that i wish i could be . To cherish the one i love till the end of time. How awesome can life get?! With Super strength. Speed. The ability to read minds. And of cause Happily Ever After. Ohhlalala~

"About three things i was absolutely positive, First Edward was a vampire. Second, there was a part of him and i didnt know how dominant that part might be,that thrist that is for my blood. And third, i was unconditionally irrevocably in love with him "

I ought to get my hands on the first series of the book. I am on the look out for it. Please if you know of it's existance in any book store starting from the first book. Do let me know.. I am craving for it like i crave for everything. I know that most of you mates can't wait to get the link to the online twillight movie. But sorry mates, Iam not releasing it here as I am gonna let you wait in suspend till 18th December. And i bet it's worth your money , waiting ,mates.

xoxo;

Nuw.

2008-11-26T21:10:00.003+08:00

hola mates. School was pleasurable today. Plus plus... Today Andy went to school with me like literally liao. From Tampines you know. I almost faint. He live so far in the north, near bukit panjang there and he went all the way to Tampines to surprise me this morning but FAILED. ha ha ha. Guess piggy's not good at surprises... Ha ah. Wahhseyy. I was on board the train that later knowing him being at tamp. Ahhh. Lucky i havent gone way far from tamp. If not urhhh.. Poor Piggy. Then i had my french assignment done. Then have Manufacturing class which was short too. The tutor gave us some tips for common test next week. And somehow i feel a wee bit confident after getting my weekly assignment back from him. Much to my surprise i pull it thru all of them. Making me have interest to at least mug about it this weekend liao. After MFP lab was DSA lab. which was basically in other words called C# programming. Wahhh. I thought i would have failed terribly. But Ms Tan confirmed that i was short of afew more marks to at least passed. And I bet i'll try my best to pull it thru with the project and the Lab test two which is after the term break. Fuuuuyoooo. There's so much to be done. Yet having so little time. I still want to enjoy life like i usually do. Slack and Chill. Having no worries about the upcoming days. Ohhlalalala~ I crave for more holidays. And less school. I want to travel the world. And explore god's creation of love with love.

"LOVE FOR THE LOVERS"
Baahhhhh. Iam done.

2008-11-26T04:34:00.005+08:00

I super hate this girl. She's been a pain in my ass, eversince she entered Loyang Secondary. She have hacked my baby's friendster, msn acct times before. But guess she doesnt want to change still. She even stalked my baby home a lot of times just to know where she stays. Like farking irritating right?! And guess what she accept whatever negative we have to say of her cause she said she's in love with my baby. How is that possible when all you ever know of my baby was her photos and stuff. You even ask around about my baby. I am going to post her picture so all of you mates gets a sigh of her. So if you see her outside,make sure you don't ever try make contact with her. For all you know you're her next target. She will hunt about your background infomation till she has no more that she have to make up stories just so you get made with her and you're agitated.And that you'll confront her.She'll pop up at your regular places just to pissed you off. She's mentally unstable. Even her parents can't handle her. Sueming is her name. And she's a yr 2 in Loyang secondary school. Do keep her away!! She's on the lose thus beware!!

2008-11-25T16:16:00.007+08:00

" There are so many insecure people in

the society today. It's like an epidemic

and it is causing big problems. Insecure

people need to be told 24 hours a day

that they're loved, that they're

good-looking , and on and on. If you're

married or in a relationship to an

insecure person, it can ruin your marriage and

relationship because you have to spend all your time trying to fix

them. Sooner or later, you'll get tired of

having to keep that person fixed. "

copyrighted frm Sven antimony profile. And super agree to this quote. How true can it ever get ,right?! Hopefully you mates can learn something from the quotations alright.
Much love;
Nuw.

2008-11-25T00:11:00.004+08:00

Introduction introduction.. This is my piggy. ANDY PRAKASH S/O NADARAJAN. laughs**.

He look so girly in this photo though. Was dared by his friends to use it while shopping for parts at sim lim just now. I find it cute though. This is the Andy ive been mentioning frm my previous posts,mates. Cute right?! ha ha ha.

Today i went to school with him., First meet but we both made a boo boo.!! He ended up waiting for me at Toa Payoh when iam at Bishan already. And that's nt the end. Then i was daydreaming at AMK that i never notice his train passed by. laughs* so he ended upi waiting for me at Yio Chu Kang. Which he could have done at the first place. ha ha .

And justnow before he went offline, he msn with me for a while. showing me the girly photo his friend took and stuff. And then he said he's going out to play mahjong. i was like nagging for awhile before letting him off. Then he said this... Awwww.... ha ha ha.

2008-11-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

What should i really feel now?! I dont really know the answer to that question liao..Sorta have the mixed kinda feeling. Causing my stomach to feel real bad. Hungry?! Not really.Erghs. I hate the guilt I am feeling. Was iIto blame? For all that had happen! Gosh!! But why must i bother abt something when the one that's going thru it, doesnt even care. Ohh well. People lose themselves in thoughts that aint really essential. Its just that i need to go that extra mile just to be there for the one cause i care, you dumbhead. What do you call a friend that doesnt care. Hypocrites. Dreamers.Urghs. I hate having to tolerate people's attitude towards you when you're trying so hard to be there for them. Thus, i think i shall not care too much when people dont ask for it,right?! As they tend to take you for granted. F! luhhh.

"I am trying to be nice && you're screwing everything!!"

Mind my language mates, I just feel bad!

2008-11-23T17:47:00.002+08:00

the street soccer tournament we all have been wanting to hear abt.Okay it was yesterday luhh right?! And iam updating today, so let me start by saying that we lost to a pathetic PENALTY KICK... oppsy i shud have kept the results for last but i just couldn't resist the suspends any longer. ERRRR!! Basically i woke up late much to phoning till like 4 in the morning.. After that dont expect me to wake up like 8plus just to be early with my team mates. They really wooo.. All came late i supposed. When i reached ard like 11plus, the sorewinner team had lost. And we're left with the sorelosers like always. Hopes were high. And guess what MAEL didn't turn up. Cause he had dragonboat competition that morning. I was pissed somehow. Having to not have a good player on a tournament like this. We wanted to win like all others. As we won before. And wait we ahd too wait till like ard 1plus then we got the chance to play. Our only game. We were up to draw till the moment darren lose focus on the ball. Due to some reason thought. The whole was a tough fight. As the opponing team were so rough on us. If you were to see the game thru yesterday,you ought to frustratd too. As the players of SKW was damn big size and theor leg were twice the size of my team's player. ERGHSS. and we were like drawing. They we really bad sports as they literally push my player off ground. Imagine the sight od sabby flying to the ground. I was pissed the moment one of them basically ritaliate and push my smallest player, which was afiq. Hence traggaring the audience. Most of them we against SKW due to their rough play. All i could pray for was the existance of MAEL there. If only he were there, there sure will be a fight. Cause i know hw much winning means to MAEL. ha ha ha haha a. I was preety mad, i can say as i cant stop blabering abt the afiq incident. It was so unexpected of SKW. Due to rage i almost start a fight. As i know if iam in, all of them will be in against them. BUT BUT BUT. my concious self was over control and i could handle a rage. Farithz was there too supporting the SORELOSERS. (:(: i was proud of them though. For at least withstanding that hooligans frm winning a goal. YEAHYEAH!!! later after resting we went for a swim and early dinner. Which lead to me snoring in my bed the whole night. Was somehow drained?! Next week iam going to witness the fight between farithz's team and that SKW team. SUCKY SUCK. I cant wait to see them lose..ARGHS!!

2008-11-22T01:53:00.007+08:00

" ohh shit. ohh shit. ohh shit...
i made a boo boo!! Shit shit.. I dont know where to start. Iam really sorry to those ive hurt so far. Ive just notice that by just being myself hurts others. How am i going to love someone devotedly when i feel all fenced up. Some bonds are made and our class are too close. And i really have no guts to bring myself to repay the feeling you are having for me as iam not ready to be devoted to one. Like before. How many times must i go through this line. Why can't we love yet not being in a relationship. I reckon that. Iam into random love. I spread much love to those who are willing to return love back to me. Due to that i think others misunderstood me. Iam here sort of to clear the hot air that has been in some minds. Yes! I care for you more than a friend. Cause i dont want you to fall back and ruin everything in your life. Yes! i fear going out with you or either just be there with you as i fear due to that, your feelings for me will grow. And i dont want you to feel that iam taking you for a ride. But today was all preplanned by my bruder. I wasnt making excuses to not have lunch with you,dude! Guess assumptions do kill. It hurts to know that you're hurt. Cause i dont plan things to happen this way. But well i think all that happen went too fast , and it can't be mended. As whats done is done. Iam trully sorry from the bottom of my heart if i've hurt you in any form. Iam just me. And hope you're doing just fine.
Remember that i'll always be here to spread love.
Once again iam sorry.
if you're reading this.
hope you accept my apology. "

xoxo;

Nuwul.

2008-11-21T12:48:00.004+08:00

Back to Wednesday night.. My last minute decision to attend TPRAWKS was wayyyy awesome. Cause on the way back, at the yio chu kang mrt platform, i met mervin. The Ex dancer form TPDE. So since he had nothing on that night. I drag him along for the JAMANDHOP thingy at TCC. i find TP people being too strict luhh. They dont even allow their own students to join the fun. FARK right. But well i did enter. And imagine if they wudve find out my existance after the whole thing ends. How frustrated can you get??!! HAH.. An NYP student in TP JAMANDHOP..cool or wat. I wore the coordinator's black tee plus a tattoo which without any you can't simply enter. So yeah.. I entered with no trouble at all. FUUUYOOOO!! ha ha dumbasses. They are being too strict for no apparent reason luhh dey. How dumb right.?! I'll rate their JAMANDHOP, 3 out of 10 cause there's too much JAM then HOP. i thot it shud be at least equal. Like urghs. Unfortunately for me i was there to groove to the DJ's beat and all dressed up for a dance which never really last long. FARKINGFARKER.. But well the existance of one of the TPDE member made my night. Him and his so unforgetable face were tattooed hard in my mind all the way thru the night. HAHA!! He dance so well too,with super cute expressions. With mervin going ard being friendly with almost anybody.Even the ones he dont know. HAHA!!Being with him made me not afraid to have fun while other's are watching. Like he said..."FROM STRANGERS BECOME FRIENDS!!" hellyeah.!!
Ohh wait.. And you ought to check out the hot designs students from TP, they have the full thing i can say. Just no full torso luhh. I caught my eye on one of them on the way back to the Tampines Inter. The more i ponder being having such a cliche poly life in TP..thus iam in NYP for a reason yawwww... lalalala~~

Yesterday's plus today's school equavalent to pathetic. URGHS!! Imagind havin to wake up so early in the morning to attend test for only two then you are free till like 2PM. sian right? Welcome to my NYP life. sucky man!! If not for Andy i think i wud have been late for my BIS test yesterday. Many love to Andy. (: (: Damn!! Acerli i had innovative project's lecture which i never attend before at twelve. Due to not having DSA class at 10 and thanks to me for being super forgetful, i wud hav brought my admin card for lecture. So ive decided since i never brought my card along to school today,rather then slack in school and attend a lecture that isnt gonna mark you present for it,might as well enjoy a lovely trip to lala~ land in my beloved bed. laughs. Thats what i eventually did. Thanks to mates that doesnt want to study for CISCO test which was today. HAHAHA...
And guess what i slept the whole way thru yesterday. UHH!! super tired i'd call it. I slept all the way till like ard 8 then watch harry potter and the goblet of fire then watch project runway... later finding myself sound asleep in my bed again. Kor Kor X has no choice but to carry me back to my room.. AWWWWW!!! Aint that sweet. Love you Kor Kor.He even promised to buy me the red adidas watch that ive wanted for like 1mth ago and of choice after much persuation luuhhhh. EVIL LAUGHS~..

Today was like okay luhh. The cisco test which i never even studied for was terribly easy as we had the chance to chat and pass answers thru MSN!! Cool man!! The tutor rock fulltime.YQ even had the gonggong guts to search google for the descriptive questions. OHH man!! you gendeng.!! hah ah.

2008-11-19T02:45:00.002+08:00

The Kind Of Christmas I Really Want To Look Forward too...

Imagine having Dougie Poynter as a gift from Santa. OMFG!! It will be like a dream come true. I bet i will end up fainting the moment i see him in the box. OHHHHH!!!

2008-11-18T16:00:00.005+08:00

Okay I dont acerli know what to start with. There's so much that happen since my last post. Was just too lazy to update this space of mine. So yeah. Here Iam. I may look okay on the outside,smiling all the way like i always do. But dont be fool. Cause iam not okay in the inside. Cause iam losing too much. So mind me if I am different. I really sucks at regrets. Errrrmm.

1. THE CHALET.

Last weekend which was on the 14th to the 16th of November. My super duper clique held a chalet at sentosa. With a simple motive of catching up on stuff. Knowing what we had long forgotten about. And this chalet also marks a sign of goodbye to most of us as it was the last few days before some as to go and pursue their dreams overseas. I cried at the thought of not having them to fall back too. They are so called my cushion when i fall. They break the impact. They are like no other. Especially Timothy and Drake. My beloved blood brud. They are so one of a kind. And so i reckon... I reached sentosa with Matty at ard 6plus. Coming across Drake making out with his love for this weekend at the room. Wahsey. Dirty the place only xia. Laughs. He just need to have some fun he said. Like duhh!! And so yeah. I was super drained after 3hours of fundamental networking in the morning. Plus DSA make up lesson with WY and 03gang. Laughs. They're loved. Due to exhaustion, I slept till ard 11. When they woke me up to enjoy a drink. My unconcious mind declined and plead to be left alone for the night. Which they did till the moment Ah Boon called and i answered. They were pissed. Cause I woke up just to answer the call but declined their offer to enjoy. As a results my hp was 'CONFISCATED' by Timothy for the rest of the time i spent at the chalet. So yeah. I survive the three days that though i wouldnt without my hp. Blushing~ I was the only single girl in this super duper clique of mine. All of the bruds are happily attached or had a one night stand as a company. Later the existance of Helmy, turned me off completely. He so called didnt know that he was supposed to bring along his gf. So yeah. You can read my mind. I was paired with him. And i have to do almost everything with him for the three day. For Goodness Sake. He's my blady Ex boyfie, you mofo.... Arghs. But well he really make things up to me this three days. But i know well that he's lovely attached to Suzanna since the year i broke up with him. And i dont plan to change that any bit. At first it was really awkward bt as you get drunk nothing really matters right. All we had was fun. But not forgetting Limitations, my dear. Ha aha . I couldnt believe that Timothy and Drake warned him before they paired me with him. So nothing really happens, so wash all those undesirable thoughts alright.?!And i love him for the three days thought. He was like my own. Just that the past are always there to remind us before a mistake is done. Get it!! Guess thats the only highlight of this weekend though.

"Much loovve spread to those going off soon. Many memories holds us up tight. Do remember us when youre alone and lonely. We'll always be here when you return. "

xoxo;

MeiMei.

2. DANISH MICHAEL ANG.

Guess i am feelign really off myself this week and for the upcoming week. The Best Cousie Ever. My Only. Danny Michy. My super beloved cousie that took Halfie's place in my heart, is going back to Australia to study and stay. I know well that he staying here wasnt going to be a permanent one. Guess this is the effect of loving too much than you are supposed to. And it do hurts me , knowing that there is really no one that i could really depend on right here. I mean those that i could meet up during my sleepless nights for a drink. And the ones i could trust with my secrets. Urghs. Everyone's leaving and iam stucked here with a diploma to pursue. Somehow its freaking me out. Like urghs.

" And Honey, don't you dare say I am going to get over you soon as you are tattoo-d deep in my heart. And that no one could practically replace the gap youve leave behind. As there is no replica of my Danny Michy. And wait. Youre loved terribly."

xoxo;

Yr.wully.

4. ANDY.

Yesterday we were like slacking at mac in school when we came across the a really cute guy. He looked malay bt NOT. laughs* As we mumbled about his features, Chanel got the idea that i wanted to get to know him real well. And literally dared Sabby to ask him for his number. And so Sabby asked me for my phone and guess what he really asked for his number liao. I was damn paisey that i hid under the table. I was red all over xia. But well new friends are loved.

2008-11-11T00:09:00.002+08:00

Rumors

"Saturday steppin' into the club.

And it makes me wanna tell the DJ Turn It Up

I feel the energy all around

And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me

And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see

Well I just need a little space to breathe

Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]

Why can't you just let me

Do the things I wanna do

I just wanna be me

I don't understand why

Would you wanna bring me down

I'm only having funI'm gonna live my life

Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]

I'm tired of rumors starting

I'm sick of being followed

I'm tired of people lying

Saying what they want about me

Why can't they back up off me

Why can't they let me live

I'm gonna do it my way

Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club

People taking pictures

Don't you think they get enough

I just wanna be all over the floor

And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully

I would like it if you take the cameras off of me

'Cause I just want a little room to breathe

Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]

[CHORUS:]

I'm tired of rumors starting

I'm sick of being followed

I'm tired of people lying

Saying what they want about me

Why can't they back up off me

Why can't they let me live

I'm gonna do it my way

Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)

Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)

Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me

Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

[CHORUS:]

2008-11-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

ohh shit. ohh shit.
i dont get you. you say that you are trying to look out for me?! WTF. eyy boy. Never did i ever get involve with your love life. But why did you?

2008-11-09T18:40:00.007+08:00

wahh. Sunday glory. I find today a real waste of precious time. There is so much to be done.

1. Send my jeans for alteration.

2. Collect my shades back from yana.

3. Go buy myself a plain white tee.

4. Complete Discussion Forum.

5. Complete Manufacturing Process Hmwk.

etc,etc,etc....

I was supposed to run some errands bt i end up at home. Painting nails and reading magazines. Like as if life is that managable that i could lay back and just forget the world as i reckon fantasy land. How i wish i could be in a world of only perfection nothing else. Guess dreams are only meant to remain as dreams. Weeks have passed and the thought of some cravings keeps repeating in my mind ,i swear the moment i open my braces, i am going to pierce my tongue and my hand. At first i had in mind of doing inner lip tattoo. Many thanks to Mister Danish Micheal for introducing the possibility of it. He got it done all the way back time when he was in the states. When he turned 14.Cool urhh.

I wanted a star or even a Gemini logo.Just like this one.

Well my mind has been well made up. And i'll wait till i am really prepared then i'll get a tattoo all over again. The feeling of removing one is not that pleasant. I am done with the thought of visiting the plastic surgeon all over again.It gives me the creeps. So yeah guess I am really fickle minded. I fear that i will get addicted to doing one and that i want more. Just like korkor Raf. But he's a guy. And I am a girl. So that really set us apart... Other then that nothing 's different about us, two. Cause both want to experiment new stuff and that both can never compromise with life commitments... bla bla bla. At first i wanted to experiment with the lizard tongue thingy bt well many disagree with the thought of it.

So mission cancelled.

Currently contacting someone new. Accepting the fact that opportunities never always come knocking twice on our life doors. And that the best never always remain the best cause no one is actually perfect. Bye bye past. ohh well many loves to the present and upcoming future.

Somehow i really can't accept that some has to smoke their life away. What's the use of smoking when it's outcome is really visible. Ive set my conscience clear that smokers sucks. All they think of are themselves. Never taking in mind the conquences of their habits. The lives they put at risk just by liting a cigarette and puff it all up. I dont find the necessity to smoke. Like really. I tried it before. But nothing's that pleasurable though. Just "ohh i smoke ya know." or "do you have a lighter"?!! And the issue here is why must guys always say that that they are quiting , just to please a girl?! Ohh please don't place false hopes to the girls when you are just trying to tackle her or whatever. I still disagree to the fact that you can't control your habit. When it has to stop it has to. No but-s. Ermm guess nothing's gonna change your mind of your habits urhh. Suits yourself then,smokers. [ p.s this is my lil space, so i have the right to say about almost anything here. ]

2008-11-07T21:18:00.004+08:00

it's friday today. And it makes the end of a monotonous week of failures. I failed my DSA first quiz togather with my BIS online quiz. I ought to pull up my socks though. I want to score an even better gpa this semester but i am still stuck in my land of dreams. Test are due next week and i dont even know what some of the modules are about. Fundamental networking was a drag today. Having to sustain sleep. Ohh God please bless me. Then innovation project is having a presentation next week, Monday. Urgh.. its like the 4th week since school reopen and i have not enjoyed school really that much thus finding it be a nuisance. Nothing's making me look forward to going to school and stuff. How could this be?! I also dont know. Ohh man!! How i wish ever single week passes by so slowly. Cause i dont really look forward to weekends as they maybe really sickening. The fact that my weekends don't feel like weekend anymore. Okay let's stop the emo-ing. Back to school,. i settled the street soccer competition regisitration for both our teams. Seven to six. One group has a shortage of one subtitude player. But guess we will do just fine without that one player. Having the though that the sorelosers will rise to victory all over again. Woo hoo~ Then i had to wait for chen ting to play basketball. And guess what? I endured the sun and the prespiration. Bo pian leyy. Ha ha . Then home sweet home. Where i found my dearest darling at best. And snoring i go. laugh* planned to have an evening jog but guess my beauty sleep i smuch of an importance to my unconcious self when i realised it was like 5in the evening but my mind was totally out of jogging itself. I continued sleeping till 20:00plus. and i think iam done here.

2008-11-04T23:17:00.004+08:00

hello mates. I was too lazy to update this page of mine. so yeah. Now was like .. my last post was like on the 28 i think. correct me if iam wrong. But yeah it was like so long ago. (:

I made new friends today at friendster and msn too. Ah boon and Qi feng from D403. ha ha. thay are super friendly then i though they were. guess looks are deceiving. Back to today ,school was ordinary at first. But as usual i look upon skipping fundamental networking lecture with my classy. We went to consume some food at kofu. Then we proceed to libraby coz we want make some noise. Before that we went to withdraw money at the shopping arcade where i saw this super cute caucasion guy wearing one black-jason-mraz-kinda hat with his curly locks. ohh so cute. But well keeping in my my all time favourite crush that ive longed to see eversince school reopened. ohh damn. so yeah i kinda miss the way he smile. That sun kissed skin color and that full set of torso. ohh make my legs go weak. **laughs!! Lets not forget about that jason mraz wanna be. Sabby saw him at the library when he return from the toilet. So i was ohhh. i begged him to accompany me to cheers to go pass that jason mraz wannabe . Later i was complaining about having to go all the way to cheers to have a look at that cutie,junior version of jason mraz. Later once i enter the cheers my eyes caught hold of this so familiar yet ever lasting missed face. It was that guy i was missing all this while. I crave for him even more. h aaa. If you dont believe you can ask sabby. i went bizzaredly unstable once i saw him. ohhh.

2008-10-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

It was a splendid day,i'll call it.
ohhh.
knowing more about fatin and rudy.
ohh that newly lovebirds.
awww.
so sweet.
i saw some love in his eyes even when he talk to my jewel.
it was fasinating overall rated.
(:
will update furthher tmr. sorta tired.
i love my nishy.

2008-10-24T06:27:00.003+08:00

2008-10-21T22:38:00.010+08:00

the

Trivalent

2008-10-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

Girl,iam exactly where i want to be.
The only thing is i need you here with me.

-Danish Micheal.

2008-10-16T19:23:00.006+08:00

Dear God.

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line.

Miles away from those I love.

Purpose hard to find.

While I recall all the words you spoke to me.

Can't help but wish that I was there.

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you.

Is to hold her when I'm not around.

When I'm much too far away.

We all need that person who can be true to you.

But I left her when I found her.

And now I wish I'd stayed'.

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.

I'm missing you again, oh no.

Once again.

There's nothing here for me on this barren road.

There's no one here while the city sleeps.

And all the shops are closed.

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you.

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is.

To hold her when I'm not around,

When I'm much too far away.

We all need that person who can be true to you.

I left her when I found her.

And now I wish I'd stayed'.

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.

I'm missing you again oh no.

Once again.

Some search, never finding a way.

Before long, they waste away.

I found you, something told me to stay.

I gave in, to selfish ways.

And how I miss someone to hold.

When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line.

Miles away from those I love.

Hope is hard to find.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is.

To hold her when I'm not around,

When I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you.

I left her when I found her.

And now I wish I'd stayed'.

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.

I'm missing you again oh no.

Once again

2008-10-10T01:03:00.004+08:00

haikal. freshmic says:
BB!!!!!!
haikal. freshmic says:
sorry abt this morning
haikal. freshmic says:
you there
haikal. freshmic says:
??
nuw. //super drained. says:
oppsy sory.
nuw. //super drained. says:
i was not at my room.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
its okay dont think too much can??
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
its ok
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
what you doing bb?
nuw. //super drained. says:
i need to take a bath n want go to TM for awhile.
haikal. freshmic says:
go there utk ape?
nuw. //super drained. says:
go buy roti and some more groceries.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
rajin my baby
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
nt rajin larh.
nuw. //super drained. says:
no choice ready.
nuw. //super drained. says:
my brothers all go out.
haikal. freshmic says:
force too?
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
go where?
nuw. //super drained. says:
n leave me and my mumy to handle visitor.
nuw. //super drained. says:
y go jalan raye.
haikal. freshmic says:
aww...
haikal. freshmic says:
kesian syg
haikal. freshmic says:
nanti i dtg tlng lah
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
nuw. //super drained. says:
wahsey.
nuw. //super drained. says:
no thank you.
nuw. //super drained. says:
h aha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
nnti my mumy have heart attack then you knw.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha haha.
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
nolah
haikal. freshmic says:
i dont think mumy will have a heart attack
haikal. freshmic says:
i think you will have a heart attack
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
i will have a fit i think.
nuw. //super drained. says:
heart attack to young for me leyy.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
haikal. freshmic says:
walau!!!
haikal. freshmic says:
so mean ar you say that i will give you a fit
haikal. freshmic says:
hurmph!
haikal. freshmic says:
not talking to you
haikal. freshmic says:
);
nuw. //super drained. says:
youre not going to give me a fit.
nuw. //super drained. says:
your sudden presence will give me a fit.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
understand.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
then i will save you lor.
haikal. freshmic says:
i kan superhero haikal.
freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
h aha .
nuw. //super drained. says:
mcm paham sey.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(: (:
haikal. freshmic says:
MMG paham
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
bb,ily
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(:
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
nuw. //super drained. says:
ilyt.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
have you bath dear?
haikal. freshmic says:
wat time you going to tm?
nuw. //super drained. says:
i just finish bathing.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
nw getting ready to go.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
b can i dont go werk?
haikal. freshmic says:
lazy ar
nuw. //super drained. says:
no.. no.. you must go darling.
haikal. freshmic says:
haiyaa
nuw. //super drained. says:
its being responsible if you go.
nuw. //super drained. says:
come on.
nuw. //super drained. says:
go okay?
haikal. freshmic says:
ok.....
nuw. //super drained. says:
good.
haikal. freshmic says:
then its being responsible if you study for your os you noe
haikal. freshmic says:
so must study k?
nuw. //super drained. says:
ive start studying alredy you knw.
haikal. freshmic says:
really?
nuw. //super drained. says:
justnow in morning.
haikal. freshmic says:
and wat did you study?
nuw. //super drained. says:
some chemistry practical thingy..
nuw. //super drained. says:
precipitate and stuff.
haikal. freshmic says:
ok
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
thats gd bb
haikal. freshmic says:
keep it up ok
haikal. freshmic says:
makesure you study ya
nuw. //super drained. says:
yes darling.
nuw. //super drained. says:
dont worry too much can??
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
ok2
nuw. //super drained. says:
go siap to go work.
haikal. freshmic says:
i wont
haikal. freshmic says:
dah siap
haikal. freshmic says:
all thats left is for me too bath
haikal. freshmic says:
but its too early.
nuw. //super drained. says:
orhh.
nuw. //super drained. says:
n what time you leaving your home sey?
haikal. freshmic says:
6.15
nuw. //super drained. says:
orh.
nuw. //super drained. says:
you still got like 1hr to laze ard.
haikal. freshmic says:
are you going tm by yourself?
nuw. //super drained. says:
narh.
nuw. //super drained. says:
why??
haikal. freshmic says:
yup
haikal. freshmic says:
then with who?
nuw. //super drained. says:
meeting some mates at starbucks to talk for awhile n go groceries shopping.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
ok
haikal. freshmic says:
my legs tired sia b
nuw. //super drained. says:
poorthing sey.
nuw. //super drained. says:
hw come?
haikal. freshmic says:
bcoz i was krumping
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
nthing to do lah
haikal. freshmic says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
wahseyu.
nuw. //super drained. says:
you urhh.
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
nuw. //super drained. says:
to larh tak tau duduk diam kan??
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha .
haikal. freshmic says:
my adk vid the whole thing sia
haikal. freshmic says:
haha
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
cute larh tu..
nuw. //super drained. says:
h aha.
haikal. freshmic says:
ape yng cute?
nuw. //super drained. says:
tt your krumping is caught on vid.
nuw. //super drained. says:
so i can see.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
no.hehehehe
nuw. //super drained. says:
WAHSEY.
nuw. //super drained. says:
mean xia you.
nuw. //super drained. says:
-_-
haikal. freshmic says:
ok2
haikal. freshmic says:
i let you watch it ok
haikal. freshmic says:
just you only
haikal. freshmic says:
haa
haikal. freshmic says:
(:
nuw. //super drained. says:
h aha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
good.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
why is it gd?
haikal. freshmic says:
my adk say you look chinese.
haikal. freshmic says:
and pretty
nuw. //super drained. says:
good that you let me see larh sey.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.

haikal. freshmic says:
ok lah sey
nuw. //super drained. says:
iam chindian tell her.
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe

nuw. //super drained. says:
(: (:
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
then i malarican
haikal. freshmic says:
hahahahahahahahahaha
nuw. //super drained. says:
eyyy.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
haikal. freshmic says:
you noe whats malarican anot?
nuw. //super drained. says:
malay plus american kan??
haikal. freshmic says:
yeap
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
mcm phm
haikal. freshmic says:
i say for you
nuw. //super drained. says:
tau tk pe.
haikal. freshmic says:
hehe
haikal. freshmic says:
what you doing bb?
nuw. //super drained. says:
waiting for my mum to pass me some cash.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
what do you have to buy dear?
haikal. freshmic says:
?
nuw. //super drained. says:
bread, sausages and some tata suace.
nuw. //super drained. says:
*sauce
haikal. freshmic says:
what did mumy cook for the open hs?
nuw. //super drained. says:
nothing much.
nuw. //super drained. says:
just mee hongkong.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
wah!!!!!!!!
haikal. freshmic says:
power sia
haikal. freshmic says:
i like..
haikal. freshmic says:
haiya
haikal. freshmic says:
i dont noe wat mkn to bring to werk lah b
haikal. freshmic says:
cekx.
nuw. //super drained. says:
ha ha.
nuw. //super drained. says:
poor darling.
haikal. freshmic says:
takpelah
haikal. freshmic says:
i puase the whole nite lah
nuw. //super drained. says:
wahseyu.
nuw. //super drained. says:
dont larh dar.
nuw. //super drained. says:
wait sakit sey.
haikal. freshmic says:
then what to do?
haikal. freshmic says:
i dont noe what food to buy
haikal. freshmic says:
then i dont feel like eating anything
nuw. //super drained. says:
buy anything larh.
haikal. freshmic says:
see how lah
nuw. //super drained. says:
wahseyu..
haikal. freshmic says:
why b?
nuw. //super drained. says:
you making me worry sey.
haikal. freshmic says:
ok2
haikal. freshmic says:
dont2
haikal. freshmic says:
i go buy something ok
haikal. freshmic says:
ok syg?
nuw. //super drained. says:
okay good dar.
nuw. //super drained. says:
okay larh.
nuw. //super drained. says:
i need to go already.
haikal. freshmic says:
ok syg
nuw. //super drained. says:
i'll msg you in awhile.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic winks:
Play "Kiss"
nuw. //super drained. says:
ily.
nuw. //super drained. says:
(:
haikal. freshmic says:
ilyt
haikal. freshmic says:
mwuackx
haikal. freshmic says:
baik2

2008-10-09T19:29:00.002+08:00

ohh well.

i finally had my OPEN HOUSE today.

i just finish clearing stuff. Re-arranging the furnitures. And deciding on the menu. Ohh gosh. I feel so drained you know.If only you saw how i acerli work my ass out today,you would bet i lose alot of unseen undesirable fats under that skin tissues of mine. Ohh i wonder. Recently i feel so like the old me. So loved. This time by one particular person. Lets say his my bfie. Ohh god. I finally gave up my single hood life just to be with some particular guy. Ohh lover. You must really cherish the chance i've given cause opportunity only come knocking once. Urghs. All the Midnight calls, the 24/7 messages. Are all back up my daily list. Ohhhh. We've got plans due next week. Gonna catch some movies. And ohh he's adorable. So unlike halfie to be frank. He's so protective yet not over. He's so loving yet sincere. I hope what iam feeling is true. I can afford to like be heart broken again like before sey. Somehow i've learn to trust him so much this few days that i fear that that one day will come. And we have to part. Ohh love cupid. I need you around like always. (: please stay okay?! laughs* I think iam going crazy.. crazy in love. ha ha.

2008-10-07T09:43:00.006+08:00

Dental appointment cancelled again. Due to waking up super early but yet lazy to get my butt set for town. Ahh what a drag. (: I really had to do some lazing to get my mood started. Its like 9:44am and i have time to reach outram if i want to but well iam too lazy to even call korkor Raf to send me there. I was too exhausted frm sleepign late yesterday. Last night i was drag to come along to visit some oldies' house at night. We went around 3 houses. And imagine me in nyonya kebaye and riding a bmw bike. Ever imagine. Ohh well it did happen alright. Korkor Raf bought me a full helmet yesterday and he wants me to use it out today with him. Thanks to havin packed family car. And thanks to Annable for being undesirable pregnant. Ohh shit. This is really killing me. And korkor Raf refused profusedly to use his green mini cooper instead. What a kor kor i have. See hoow i had to spoil my "hair-do" just to get into that helmet. But well i still love it okay. Cause it was what i always wanted. To look so ruggard. Ohh mind the kebaye i wore.

And last night once i got home. I got my mind stuck to watching. My bestfriend's girl. That show is hilarious. I'll rate it around 6 out of 10. Not that satisfying for me. Thanks to Jason Biggs not really playing is role that well i think.

Here goes the synopsis:

Tank (Dane Cook) is put to the ultimate friendship test when his best friend Dustin (Jason Biggs) hires him to take his ex-girlfriend Alexis (Kate Hudson) on a lousy date just to show her how great her former boyfriend is. When Alexis finds Tank more fascinating she decides that she wants Tank, and wants to take him to a wedding instead of Dustin. Dustin tries to become more like Tank in an attempt to get Alexis back. In the meantime, Tank is trying to make Alexis like Dustin again, but Dustin is trying to mess up the wedding and ruin Tank's and Alexis's relationship at the same time.

Then later in which i had a really long talk my my cuzins' ex boyfriend. He seems so nice. But well it set my mind thinking why hazel reap the chances being with him. And i bet he really loved her. From the way he talk about things. Ohh shit. I did a huge boo boo. Ohh daddy love i really need your views on this kinda stuff. Iam in dead shit. Arghs...

2008-09-20T02:13:00.013+08:00

WEEK'S UPDATE;

30th Septmeber;

Today is the last day of fasting month yaw mates.And guess what this freaking year i never even plan any outing to break fast outside with my peeps. I really have no time to like really sit down and plans.With the F1 thingy up. And all. Ohh hw i regret.Got my heena don't,close to the last of minutes. And hey people its much worth to get your hands done,either at the geylang bazaar or the deepavali festival bazaar.Cause they do cheap and beautifully. Like for real.Apart from having my cuzin to get it done for me for free. I just have to get it done at serangoon cause korkor hate to bother them like for real. He just refuse to give cuzin a call and set a date to the last minutes. In which later, Daddy asked to go do it at serangoon.

Advanced Selamat Hari Raye & Happy Children's Day. Sory mates,cause i forsee myself not updating for awhile.

29th September;

today i had to run for errands for mummy.And lucky for me i had to go with korkor rudy.And not having to suffer thru this with korkor x.First we had to rush the dhoby to get all the laundry stuff. Next we went to the ophanage to settle the zakat and fidia.I was planning to get my ears pierced then change of heart due to some matters which happens so fast though. Ahhh Siak uhh. Then i went to marine parade to break fast. This time not feeling hungry at all sey. I so love my korkor rudy.

28th September;

The frustrating part is that Alonso won. And Kimi Raikkonen lost due to hitting that farking wall and stuff. Ohh shit. This really spoils my three day being here.And that Hamilton dont even deserve to be at the 3rd place larh dey. Credits to those who tried so hard to impress me.But i still do really love to see Kimi Raikkonen at the top. laughs.*

27th September;

26th September;

25th September;

this date. The Trivalent went jamming for the very first time ever.We finally decide to settle down with this band name.Ohh shit.i really enjoy jamming.But after like 3hours,i felt the drainage of energy.And i was feeling the exhaustion at my throat. Ohh GOD! i was fasting. Like for real. And here i am controlling myself from delights my jewels consume.Ohh man!

24th September;

Lets begin with Wednesday. Ohh man. Today i got to meet up with my loved,Mamus. I so love them. They're are like my eye candies. So addictive. I had dinner with them. Had some really family talk. Mamu Apit was having a project in mind. In need to lend some money from my mummy. So well like normal. She agreed to lend him only 2K. ohh man.I smell trouble.And guess what.Some "clever" JC girl named ,Mabel, created problem. She sort of made rumours about my baby. And saying harsh word about my baby. Labelling my baby stuff.Ohh shit. She and her buddies. Such an ass. They spammed my baby's tagboard. Discriminating her. Ohh shit. So i speak my mind into the tagboard.With only one motive.To let those bimbos know the existance of random love. The world of reality that they assume to be in. Ohh what the hell. Like seriously,girls please get a life okay?! Okay iam done about you guys. You ain't worth my mind space.

23rd September;

Tuesday la la la~. ohh man. Iam in love. Like really. I just enjoy the feeling of random love. It's so cool. Imagine not having to be with someone in specific and you get to really love them like your own. Ulalala! Iam so loving my states now. With my jewels all around me.Ohh Love.Please stay longer.Cause you make me love so much.ha ha.Such a wonderland.

22nd September;

Monday blues is the thing.Waking up in the morning and having to face the world with no exact plans. Ohh. What a drag. I spent my first half of the day rotting in front of the tv, watching kids central. Ohh such a great fun i had. Then i came across this piece of acoustic by my no. 1 favourite band. Listen to them yaw mates. They're good though.

21st September;

Sunday love. I went to meet Raych Baby. To get my thick mane cut.Well the difference is that its damn short now. Ohh yeah. We spent our day in town and the boredom was like killing us all, me,baby and Mark. Ha a. Thanks to empty plan. We can't even decide to do anything properly.ohh shit. It was lacking of fun activity. ohh i dont want talk abt it. Later meeting Drake at Halfie's place. To slack.

Happy 28th to Robert James Hoffman III. "I envy your dancing ya knw."

20th September;

Saturday. erm i guess. I went over to meet Danish the night before. And i was stuck with him since then. So i practically stay over till the next morning lorh. (: mere boreedom.

19th September;

Friday oh Friday.

Today was so unplanned leyy. I was supposed to meet up with Jewel at 4sharp at my place. I agreed on accompanying her break fast with some new mates of hers. So well as usual, I took my blady time to get ready. Yesterday I slept at Matthew's house with Daddy love's permission. Then i just got home around 3plus. To fulfill my promise with Jewel. laughs* I was stuck with guitaring that i forgot to all about the time. And the moment Jewel called to say she was at the traffic light and wanting to meet me at the MRT station then i realised the time. I apologized profusely lorh. My bet darling. I was too into the song i was writing for our threesome band. So i asked her to meet up at my place. Which then i rush thru my bath. Ohh shit. I did a boo boo. Okay. Lets fastforward to meet up with the guys. They are such a good sport you know. Well i find them really friendly. Shaiful, Nas and Hadi i think. Sorry dude. If i get the names wrong or what so ever. I am just not interested in remembering new names. Just not in the mood yet. We acerli planned to go to Geylang Bazaar. But later last minutes change of plans. I was like uh huh. "Anything luhh!" wahseyu. Really fickle minded sey. Wahseyu. We finally decided to eat at BK. Which was really filled with crazy people. Some so-noisy-couple was like. "Ehh BK people dahh lehh buke. dahh azan!!" How pathetic?! I really can't tahan them. Then later i went to esplanade rooftop. Where i was a lil emo-ing. That place really reminds me of Halfie. Well then Danish called. Accompany me while i was like humming to some song that was like stuck in my brain. The rest of the trip was mere fasination. All that matters is that i had fun. (:

photobitching minutes at Zara.
Take one.

Take two.
[ Watch that lip do it's thing. ]

Take three.[ " You don't wanna mess around with us.Cause we are high maintanance ladys that will cost a bom to your pockets. Keep out of us."] laughs *

photobitching minutes at Millenia Walk.

^Our guys for the day. [ Naz plus Hadi plus Shaiful]^

"Thanks Saiful for taking this beautiful photo of us." Much love to you too. (:

photobitching minutes at Esplanade underground.

You could see we were buzy BISCUIT-ing.

The guy on your right was the one that make this day exist though. But with much love spread among us strangers. We had tremendous load of goodness. Well iam so looking forward of more of us in the future okay guys. And not forgetting Naz shich is on the left. He looks so alike Ariff. Remember Ariff. "Honey Don't go!!"- incident- guy. My past scandal. Well he did play apart of making history rekindles. Well but strictly no love eyy.And iam drained.

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-09-16T01:22:00.008+08:00

ONE WEEK'S UPDATE;

september 11;
got back from aussie with nishy in the early dawn.forced to go back by myself with a paid cab.wtf.well fyi i hate being send away like this.may you get a life.Nishy ohh nishy. met drake to have some stuff settled. met rafie at heeran to have early supper.then havoc larh can say. Thanks eyy Rafie for the info.ohh well iam not that happy though knowing it.Cause some guys just don't know how to confess to their wrongdoing and apologies. Intead they go missing. Fark them can?! Arghs.

september 12;
My Baby Raychie birthday surprise!!Didnt go that well cause this baby of mine just couldnt get herself home early.Planned it with srah.Met her around 11plus then. When out my place around 1plus. Celebrate. Then me qiang qiang at 498. laughs. He's so missed.Pinch pinch him. Then go meet some bikers. Called them to send me home cause it was like 4 in the morning. Head home to eat sahur with korkor x.Then sleep.

september 13;
Wake up close to 5plus.Waken by daddy love. Then proceed to go to Tekkha to break fast. ha ah. Later having to run some billing errands. Monotonous lah today. Happy 17th To my baby.

september 14;
Ohh Sunday. err. To meet my girlfies in the morning. well we talk the crap out of our lives.They are some friends i just could rely on like seriously on advice.Eventhough they are like younger.They are mature. Compared to some people.ha ha.Next Raychie called to say she is like official with some one. oppsy top secret though.Then later Nishy met me at korkor Rudy's place to "don't know what". Saw me then stared. Like as if seen a ghost. Farking Farky Farker. ha ha. Then kor kor talk about some familia matters.Then he told me a news that i already knew. ha ha. That bitch is pregnant right?! "YAY! what good news to hear." wahsey. Another pain in my arse. Hopefully the kid is not gonna be as bitchy/bastardy like his/her mother.Amin.

september 15;
Monday glory.Whatever.This time Nishy called to check on me.I hang up on him. Then i went out to met Rafie.Our first date. ha ha. I owe him much more than that leyy.And he say iam a girl with high maintenance.h aha. Then too bad lorh right?! Later we were so into each other nearing that australia international school that we accidentally came across nishy.Well he was with some girl friends of his. So why must i bother of his feeligns right?!

And happy 29th to David Rodman Annable.

And wait i got my results for my first semester. And i farking pass that POC module. ohh fark. ha ha. well greatness i felt. Like i own the whole world.My GPA = 2.753. well i made it thru. That's all that acerli matters at this point of time. (:

september 16;
I spent my tuesday at some pathetic place called christoferi. I think i spelt it wronglu or something.Accompany Hazel,Halfie's younger sister, to her piano lesson. I was force to sit inside that small classroom when she and her music teacher study chords. wahsey. Lucky for me i had my psp tagged along. Not alone though.Surf the net then. Check for some stuff online. Talk to my nephew,Adli. If only i can save copy and cut the convo. I woould have shown you mates what he wrote. And to be specific, he drew. SO clever right?! And he's only 4plus. Turning 5 this november. (: He want me to be there when he turns older. And i hope i could."Lets wish upon a star eyy,Adi."

september 17;
......

septmeber 18;

Happy 35th to James Paul Marsden.

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

That Danish Michael.

2008-09-11T22:42:00.005+08:00

why love hurts so much?
I really dont understand what it really takes to just find the right guy.Here i am spending my precious time with you.And here you are cheating on me.Ohh yarh its not called cheating cause you were just dating a girl without me knowing. Ohh shit. I dont know which story to buy?! The one you said you were going out with some schoolmates for early dinner. Or the one , Rafie said you went to Raffles Place to have late lunch with Samantha. That Samantha Lee. Again right?! Not the first to be an issue of our quarell. I am not trying to be fussy or even patty if you call it. But well spare me some thought. I wont mind if you want to slack with some girl friends of yours but well at least tell me the truth larh dude. i hate it when i have to hear something like this from someone else's mouth. Please! You are like sixteen ready right?! Do behave like one can?! I clearly know we have no knots that tie us together. But still. Because of this girl you lied to me. Well that girl must have given you much till you fear telling me the truth and rather live a lie.Much to my expectation i think. " Cause a leopard never changes its spots." And once a playboy always a playboy?! Now i realise why lily said i can't never settle down with you. I finally understand. And i regret wasting my time on such a guy. A womaniser. My aches all over again. Thanks eyy danish.

2008-09-06T08:23:00.000+08:00

iAM STUCK WITH THIS.

2008-09-05T03:18:00.001+08:00

MY MOVIE MARATHON WITH NISHY.

TO ALL COMBAT-INTO PEEPS OUT THERE. THIS IS A MOVIE OF GREAT FIGHTING. THIS SHOW WAS AND STILL AM AWESOME. YOU GUYS OUGHT TO GIVE IT A LOOK THOUGH. LAUGH* MY MAIN PRIORITY OF WATCHING WAS BECAUSE OF THE SUPER DUPER HOT LOOKING MAIN CHARACTER , JAKE TYLER, HA HA. AT FIRST GLANCE I THOUGHT HE WAS CHRISTIANO RONALDO BUT WELL HE'S NOT. CAUSE I SUPER BELIEVE HE HAS BETTER TORSO COMPARED TO CHRISY'S. SORRY TO ALL CHRISY'S FANS OUT THERE. BUT IAM JUST NOT A FAN OF HIS. GETTING BACK TO THIS MOVIE. IT'S LIKE FIGHT CLUB BUT I GUESS THIS MOVIE HAS ALITTLE MORE LESSONS TO BE LEARNED. AND THE FIGHTING IS SPECTACULAR. THAT'S UNDENIABLE. OKAY DONE. GO WATCH. (:

THIS MOVIE IS A LITTLE TOO OVER I THINK. BUT WELL ITS GOOD THOUGH. IT'S ALL ABOUT A PAMPERED OR SO CALLED SPOILT TEENAGER GETTING OVER BOARD AND BE SEND TO SOME SUPER STRICT COUNTRY ALL-GIRL COLLEGE. AT FRIST TRYING SO HARD TO GET EXPEL BUT THEN REALISING HOW MUCH SHE HAVE LEARN AND THAT SHE ACERLI WANT TO SAY. SO WELL A TURN OVER I THINK. OKAY HAVE TO ADMIT THIS MOVIE ADD LAUGHTER TO THE QUIET ATMOSPHERE I WATCH IT IN. I GUESS I DEDICATED THIS MOVIE TO ALL THE BIMBOS OUT THERE. YOU GUESS OUGHT TO GIVE IT A TRY. AND MAYBE AND WELL GOD KNOWS, YOU DECIDE TO CHANGE JUST LIKE HER.NO OFFENCE YAW.OKAY IAMM DONE. GO CATCH IT BIATCH. HA HA.

2008-09-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

AUSSIE HERE I COME.

When boredom strikes. And you have nothing to do. Just sit down and pout so many many. HA HA. Mind my dumbness. I am bored.

Adli Rafique part one.

Ever since he set his eyes on me,we've never been apart. Much love and misses were shared. I just have to be biase when it comes to him and Annabelle Rose. They maybe twins yet so different.

Adli Rafique part two.
He said,"Mei , Adi want you to stay here. pretty please?!" He said this while dozing off to sleep. He's so adorable that i couldnt leave him alone.

NASI PADANG.
Aunty June just had to prepare something. She's just like another mother to me. My cookie monster in the making. If only it could talk like one. Ha ha. Kor Raf said," Daddy always says not to play with your food ,right Mei !?" i replied by giving him my super cunning smile.

Terung Goreng with sambal belachan.Wahsey. It may be spicy but i couldn't resist not eating it. As this is Aunty June's special dish. She made it well everytime.

Fishball curry. My Personal favourite. And the best part is that it's all mine. Ha ha. I so love my Aunty.

DESSERT TIME.

Kor Raf ate this super big ice cream.With twin layer of ice cream. Coffee and chocolate.Plus super many choco powder.Which i claimed to be oreo powder.

Its finish finally.And it took him close to 30 minutes to finish up that monster. Ha ha. Well he's getting old you know.
My All time Favourite. Rambutan Smoothie.

And Kor Raf says that Mrs Annabelle Ang is pregnant. Ha ha. That bitch. I super can't wait to see her all bloated up. And i can't wait to enjoy using her stuff while she no longer can. Ha ha. Kor Raf asked me to keep it low until we see he baby bloat. ha ha. I so can't wait to torture her. Make her feel so bad till she has no choice but to resist me. Ha ha.

2008-09-04T07:04:00.007+08:00

NO MORE AYUSNI FOR EI0804

yay! so happy forever.But well logically i found myself thinking wheather i was wrong not to have impressed her with my project or what?!All i ever asked from her was her guidance.Nothing much ley.But this proof so much of her being a m_l_y..No offence to others yaw!I just need students out there to know.

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE.

CELEBRITY CRUSHES.

from the most to the least.

I so love Dougie Lee Poynter .if only he knew.ha ha.Fat hope larh nuw. You are just like the other girls out there that go crazy over him. But well i am different okay?! He's the best so far.

Steven Strait is also loved. Due to his super cute smile. Ha a.And plus muscular body. He is the kind i will label the full set.

Diego Luna Alexandra dance well. And i so love his boyish look.

Toby Hemingway has a bad boy look that i really adore.His sense of style so rocked. I really love blondes like him. He is the older version of Dougie.

Oliver James Hutson such a great lover. He look so like Halfie. But well he's so much older then Halfie. He is the other full set i have infatuation for.

Jim Sturgess has such beautiful charming eyes. He sings well too. Such a charmer.
"Look thru this list of irrisistable guys and spot the similarities. They each has their own goodness i can say."

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-09-04T05:47:00.005+08:00

Meeting Ray Baby like finally.

I went to meet Ray baby yesterday.i met her at RP there.Acerli plan to like go meet Nishy straight at Somerset MRT stacy.But later i was too hungry to like not eat there. Somemore its like gonna be cheaper rather then i consume some stuff in town right? So i had my firts meal of the day there.One chicken chop.Not that nice but okay larh.What can you really expect from a school canteen right?! i met Baby fot the last time before her birthday. The worst part is that i can't be there by her side during her birthday leyy. Super demoralising for me sey. Not to make it big for her. But well as i promised her. I will make it up to her when i return. ha ha. Which is like gonna be 7 day's late. God bless my soul can?! Ha ha.

She told me to take a look at her blog. And i did.

" Many much sorries. You know me right?! And what about sounding cranky towards me?! Err.Really meh?! Okay i havent been paying much attention on that yet. Like really. Ha ha. my little-think-too much baby.Please don't think too much can?! Iam just fine. Cause i love you too much ready. Aha.And i know you know.."

This is my replies.Ha ha.

Then later i went to meet Nishy at Heeran. He was really drained from tagging along with me while i run my errands.Wahsey. i really pity him leyy. But he was the one who wanted so much to come along though. My bad,darling. Lucky for me,we had plans to stop by his house to get our stuff before we set off to our surfer paradise. HA HA. Another 8 hours of sleeping on AIR. I so miss Kor Raf. And my little Adi.(:

2008-08-30T04:44:00.002+08:00

Ms friday baby.

I went to get pamper myself like yesterday.

the diffences is that yesterday was thursday and today is friday. And that yesterday i went with Danish and today i went with korkor instead. Firstly i start today with alot of cash in hand. a thousand of cold hard cash in my wallet.We started off at the citylink mall. The flash and splash shop where i spent 1hr considering which stuff to get and after deciding then the cashier told me that they have no change for my $1000. so i was like " ohh shit! ". How? How? So i asked them to hold on to the things and i will like come back with smaller change. Which later i was like ahh nevermind larh. Cause i was like lazy to go back to the shop. evil laughters* I was really wanting that volcom long sleeve teeshirt which then i realised that i will like spend more that half a hundred on a teeshirt. How pathetic?Then i went to the new topshop at raffles place. Which was where i finally got change for my a thousand daollars. "Argh like finally!" ha ha. Then i bought girl boxers there and a small glossy red bag. I find topshop not as fasinating as flash and splash. Due to the kind of brand i look for and stuff. Then later i proceed to peninsular where i planned to buy acoustic guitar capo but well luck wasn't like on my side. As the shop was like closed. "Damn it larh fark!" Why close so fast sey bas3rd. Then we proceed to NUM shop at city link again to get my num lappy case. Well i practically got the wrong size so i have to return to change. Really hope to come across that so-cute-dimple guy that served me justnow. ah aha. But well i really don't think he will be there cause ive to go there early and stuff. "So fat hope nuw.!" h aha. Damn! Finally i head back to TM to get faizah jewel some gift. But you see. Its like practically 9plus by then so the shops are like planning to close and stuff. So see larh. Everything turns out to defeat its own purpose. Next i proceed to my jewel's place later meeting Danish on the way there which was when he got me double scoop of orange sherbert and then walk me to jewel place where we shared some extra time together. And he said that the time shortage really made him appreciate our moments. " Whatever larh can?! " I really believe that guys are really great sweet talkers. ohhh la la la la~

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-28T05:58:00.003+08:00

ohh well.

i have lose a great soul yesterday.

my late uncle.

the best i ever had.We had finish the burial ceremony.Now left doing all that's needed for him.Whatever he had missed doing while he's still alive. Fulfilling his wishes. Doing for him his donation to orphanage and alms.Organizing prayer meet ups of his 40 days and 100 days. The discussing of all 15 of them left was made yesterday.But only 3 wasn't there to participate. Mamu bhai took leave before we even talk.Kala bedah and Mamu Hamid didn't attend his funeral at all.What a shame.They had the choice to attend yet,not coming....

What kind of brother or sister are you guys xia?

I am really curious to know?

like seriously larh.

Come on wake up can?

Yesterday was the burial then today was the 3rd day of prayers.We had done some stuff for him.Like gather the whole 12 of us to like discuss again and reconfirm with them of depts and stuff.

All was cleared.Then i was like so happy cause i like one of my uncle.He is like so different larh can?His name is Mohd. Rafik Bin Ibrahim Angullia.He has short clean kept hair and he has this very stern behaviour that i am like attracted to larh xia.

Laughs* My mummy thinks its bizarre.And daddy thinks its just kiddy infatuation.Ahh what i care right?! And this time he talked to me.I and mummy bought for him a fossil wallet for his belated birthday. He was born yeesteday on the 27th of August.ha ha.I personally saw his birth cert. larh can?! ha ha.

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-26T01:14:00.003+08:00

A very good morning to ms. Tuesday. laughs* Maybe i am off to meet Danish in awhilst time. Havingg supper at my place. Eating spagetti it hink. He's cooking this time.err. I think like always larh can?! grins* And today i create a new phrase

Happy 17th, BRIAN!

Happy birthday to you.You are born in the zoo. Panther, Tigers are you friends. And the Monkey is you. Wish you will have a splendid day today, mister. Use your privillege well alright?! May all your wishes come true. And do grow up into some gentleman alright?! god bless you. You're missed. wink. (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:

Much Love;

2008-08-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

Greeting ms. monday.

To i had O'level English Oral at Junyuan secondary.

It was so damn awkward leyy. After like so long since i was in a secondary school atmosphere.Where everyone still makes so much noise while walking thru the corridors and stuff. Having that seconday student's smell lingering on my noise. Damn. It suck. I mean like really leyy. Some "minahs" was seen. And of cause larh plus the "matreps kental" and all. All still "kacang putih". *evil laughter. Then later Danish came to fetch me. Soon after i met Danish, Mummy called saying that she's alone and need company to the hospital. Cause they called saying that Mamu Sam was like shouting and scolding the nurses there too. Well so sorry eyy Danish. I am sure to make up to you one day. I promise. He send me to Changi General Hospital. Taking so long before he want to let me off. Wahsey. " Mafan Xia Ni " well but still you're loved. Later meeting fatin jewel, she just finished her first day of her attachment and that she was very into the job. I can tell from the way she reacted and stuff. And guess who i met while buying some stuff at 7eleven. Remember Syafiq. Ahmad's friend who was my past. I acted like i didn't notice larh can? I am not that close with him to like come up to him and say hello. For god's sake, i have shame alright? Then later after that i fetch Daddy from kembangan. Then we had dinner at TM kopi tiam. Later coming across Ismail. ha ha. He confronted me . So i turn and say hey. But couldn't talk much because Mummy and Daddy were around.err.

Opps! I forgot to mention about that so-cute-innoccent looking kiddy on my previous post. He's name is Danish Micheal. He is my far paternity cuzie. He's that Danish i've been mentioning recently. But unfortunately he doesn't look that innoccent anymore compared to him 11 years back that is in that photo. Imagine that "so-cute-innoccent" with 3 piercing , one his left eyebrows , two on his tongue and three on his left ear.Plus he has a tattoo on his inner left anckle ; a red star i design.

I guess.
WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-25T04:54:00.002+08:00

Guess who this so-cute-innocent looking kiddy?

[ tips : i never thought that he was ever related to me but well he is. ]

2008-08-24T18:01:00.005+08:00

hello ms. Sunday.

today was a late day for me as i woke up around 5plus like that leyy. Awaken by the slap korkor give on my right leg.Ohh fark. Spoil my whole day.

So spend my day with only strumming my love and watch some patetic teevee shows.Then i came across this daily readings online.Well it fasinated me for a while leyy. ha ha.

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

ms.belated Saturday.

It was practically monotonous.I slept at 5am in the morning.Waking up at nearly 3.30 in the evening. I had to attend some majlis at potong pasir.My grams' "sunting" guru.

He organised a majlis for all the "sunting" people to meet up and say some prayers and stuff. i met my halfie's parents there and of coz hamzah, " my childhood lover ".

[ me and hamzah 8 years ago. ]

Well he's so grown up now. He was sleeping at Nizam's room on Nizam's bed.So called tired from his national service. This time i was like okay larh with the girls that side.Nadia and Fazila were talking to me and stuff.Adli was super close with me don't know why larh kan? [ My Adli ]
ha ha. I was happy somehow going there but it's just not like before when it was a little more harmonious and all.Well situation change. And i had fun.

[ Tok Mat's wife reunite wit Tok's wife. Nek amah and granny. they said just ol' times when they can chit chat and stuff.Nek Amah was talking with hand gesture that i can hardly take a photo of her w/o telling her to like stop and smile. well they're cherished much. ]
Later i went to town around 9plus with drake.Skate pernormal larh. Our date. Coming across the gang later.Around 12plus.I fell and i scatched my leg a couple of times. But it never hurt that much like the ones i used to get when i skate before. (:

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-23T02:29:00.011+08:00

Hello back.
laughs* I was and still am lazy to update my blog larh dey. Serious shit larh can?!
Alot had happened for the past few days. Few ain't that good to remember and some are always engraved hard as great memories larh can? ha ha. Currently doing well as a whole. But some life experience really change my views towards certain people. To be exact, my fark-ing maternity auntys and uncles..They are full-timed ball sacks. Fark them can? Talking about them can really make me frustrated all over again larh sial.They are a group of people ain't worth your respect at all. Ohh Almighty. Bless my soul. I really dont know what to say. But they are lucky that i am just their niece not their younger sister or whatever fark. Cause if i were they each would have got a piece of my mind already. Ohh shit. okay.. sory sory. i didn't mean to start a post like this but well i am expressing myself here . To who else can i really use all this vulgarities too. Right? I mean in person you hardly hear me swear. So here i go. [ P.S this is my blog. ]

Back on Tuesday, it was my major computing mathematics paper. So well you know me. Very kiasu. ha ha. Stress larh dude! So i was like err. err. Ask Afam to study with me in the early morning around 9plus gitu at school. So yeah i meet Afam and Nana at kofu there to eat. I had my usual yong tao fu curry stuff. Then Ifah joined us. Teaching me and Afam the stuupidd graph thingy. Then Fazreen joined. Seriously this time was like my first time to like slack with 03 more than my own 04. Well it was practically because Daren was like working the whole week and had no free time to like study in a group so i had to like find Afam. The first exam i actuallly studied with them. Even Sabril i didn't ask out to study. Serious shit larh dey. ha ha. Fastforward-ing. After paper i went home straight thinking i can like snore on my beloved again. But well i waa wrong, Mummy called asking me to go visit Mamu Sam at the hospital and that she'll be there shortly. err. I am an obedient " snow white ",ya 'noe! And you want to know what's with the snow white. ha ha. it was a name my korkor rafie gave very long time ago. During my primary school days i am well knowned to be-friend short guys..And its a curse that i don't click with girls around me. All boys. Strictly boys. ha ha. Cool ain't it.But well i agree with all the guys in the world that girls are trouble in any form. ha ha. No offence. But i have no doubts that it true. ha ha.

Next came Wednesday .
I went to meet my fiancee, Danish at Peninsula. Well we were supposed to buy this really stuupid undies together but in the end we forgot. So our meet up defeat the purpose in the first place. We went window shopping for stuff like crumpler bags, swatch watch and fossil leather goods. Things that i had in mind of own-ing. Like really leyy. Cause iam so gonna buy a huge shoe rack where i can like stuff the dozen dozen of shoes i have. ha ha. i strongly believe that shoes, watches and bags are collectable items.. Later meeting jewel at her place to slack. we had so many laughters alright. Acerli planned to like study for my O's. But her classic guitar left untouched, i can't bare the itch. ha ha. We ate asam pedas ikan plus fried egg. With chilled soya milk. yummy yum. the desert was orange.

Then came Thursday .
It came like a bullet train. Daddy had a call for the hospital that Mamu was in a shortage of breathe. And seeking permssion to hold on to him or just let him go in peace. Like forever. I fear that too. But while i was like rushing to the hospital,the seconds flow so slowly that i ought to ask my mum to step out of the car while i drive instead. The sense of urgency just stayed in me like for the whole few minutes that took me to reach to the hospital. I keep blaming the people surrounding me for delaying from getting there. Ohh shit. The worsr senarios played in my mind like on repeat mode. The thought of losing someone so dear to me. But all the way thru i put up a bold surface. Not want-ing to be seen as a weak-ling. Fark larh. Why must mummy contact all those hypocritical beings to come down to the hospital to have a look at their eldest brother for the presume last time? I was there. I witness the tears shed by individuals. bla bla bla~ whatever fark larh. Some didn't even bother to 'salam' when him when they arrive. Just stand by the side and like stare at him. wtf. wtf. Might as well don't bother coming right?! Some who wasn't that caring enough when he was strong before, came. Came up to him and like whisper some prayers into his ears to like remember him of the Almighty. I see all those hidden smiles. err. I hold my unsatisfaction deep down. Never to burst.
Later once i was like really sure that Mamu was doing okay. i left to the waiting sofas to chit chat with Daddy. He was so engross with his photo taking game that he never layan me. So bored larh sey. I was preparing myself for the worst larh can?! i don't want to hold Mamu much longer if it's like gonna hurt him more. At only 63years. I love him so dearly. That deep down i never want him to go. But the Almighty loves him more like no other. So i prayed for the best. Even if the Almighty was to take him whenever now, i prayed for the simpliest way. Never hurting him in any form. And i really hope what he had gone thru for his last living days,were enough to pay for his wrongdoings for the pass 63years of his life. I prayed for him to be blessed. And beg for the Almighty's mercy towards him.

the machine that closely monitored Mamu Sam's heartbeat.And it proves to be very weak.

It was 4:47am. I was still waiting at the hospital.

Mamu was warded at ward 47 bed 39.

This is my no. 10 Mamu Yahya.My saviour. A true gangster.He's someone i respect so much cause he would risk his life just to save his family.He's never afraid to die.Cause he has nothing to lose.

My 5th Kala, Limah and her husband,Mamu Ali.

[ Before ]

[ Currently ]

my definition of love:
" To love is to learn how to let go. "

And finally came Friday.
It was like at...

Awesome.
i went to visit Mamu Sam at the hospital around 2plus.There was nobody there unfortunately.So acompanied him till around 3plus.Later meeting Shyqah jewel at ITE simei entrance there.She just finished her soft ball tournament.And of coz larh she win larh okay?!We proceed to garden afterwards.

A video of my jewels and me doing our first ever sway cover.Its posted at youtube for the benefit of all though.This video really explained our outing.SPECTACULAR,right girls?

today was Amy dearest's 16th day,

"Happy birthday to you.you are born in the zoo.Zebra,Lions are your friends.And the monkey is you. *evil laughter.Ohh man! i love you much much. Hope you grow up into a elegant lady loved by all.May all your wishes come true darling. Just remember i will always be here no matter what happens."

much love:

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-19T02:52:00.005+08:00

today acerli we planned to study at 9am at school.like what afam said yesterday that we could like have breakfast together at least. macam paham larh afam. he ended up reaching school at 10plus then eat somemore. wahsey. but well iam good. cause in the morning danish accompanied me to school. he had school at 11. so he said he can teman me then he take train to school which he re-assured so many times that that was a short route. well iam loved.(:
later syamim joined me at block L level 5 wooden benches. danish left a few minutes before he came along. wahsey. good xia. then we had a heavy japanese breakfast at kofu. damn! i so missed kofu's food. laughs* then later joining Afam, Khai, Hafiz, Fazreen and Nana at mac. well as pernormal i was praying hard so that i could at least meet any of my eye candies at mac. but unfortunately i didnt pray hard enough to get to see them today at all xia. FARK.

NEXT at north wing library we had to be like poor dingbats to have to sit on the carpeted floor to study but well iam adaptable. i can manage larh dey. turn here. turn there. twist and flip. URGHS. such an arse. i know. ha ha. i was so bored that i took picures of insignificant stuff. like our foot wears. only fazreen wears a pair of shoes. wahsey. spoil sey. ha ha. like the saying goes,"photos speak a thousand words.!" wahh. we studied larh dey. really. at first nana was like our examiner aka timer. but that lasted for only awhile only before we started slacking all over again.

As you can seeee this girl in the above photo was having a buttock showcase.She was like wearing shorts ready sey.Then like urghs. But then right its none of my bisness.

&& Here is an example of a hard working student during revision time. ha ah. "No offence hor, Syamim!"

Later we proceed to mac to have our late lunch. it was around 4plus by then.
My daily dose of my addiction.wee~ Happy larh dey. && Seeee its a special order somemore.

See this belo syed. ha ha. Well take a look at those no. of mac spice they had. wahsey. What a pig. ha ha. "No offence to those who had second round larh can?" Later finding out that Nana never had bread in her life before.Like i mean as a whole. And Afam hate cheese. wahsey. What a waste cause i find cheese as such a beautiful creation.&& You wouldnt believe this part of facts that iam like gonna tell you were that,Khai doesnt eat vegetables at all. and it may make him vomit when consumed. But who cares, right?
And if you have minds like ours. you would know what we had him doing. Evil laughter*

one, two, three, EAT.

"yummy right,khai?"

take 1.^

take 2.^

A heart arranged by me, myself and i.

WELL IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-17T22:53:00.002+08:00

well.
today honestly speaking.
i was fasting.
for some pay back days i didnt make it for the last ramadhan.
so justnow when studying with afam and syamim.
syamim came alil later.
we talk.
we eat.
we walk.
bt this time iam alil too tired to enjoy much.
err.

this singing dork really knows how to sing larh sia.
iam so liking him.

that lyrical melody..

2008-08-16T05:52:00.009+08:00

Btw i just hang up the phone with danish.
he got to get ready for he's soccer training at 8.
he has to leave home half and hour before the 7.45.
or he will be late.
but still he was hard headed.
thinking that i would'nt sleep.
worrying is his fulltime job xia.
NEVER ENDING WORRIES.
urghs.

________________________________________________________

nuw : iam a big girl that can manage myself without any help okay?

dan : you are only 17 for goodness sake.you still need me to worry for you.

nuw : you arsehole.
........[ for us to know && for you,guys to imagine.* ]

_______________________________________________________

&&
guess what.
we talk about marriage.
laughs*
i simply can't believe my blady ears.
when my nishy talk about getting married.
being tied down to one and stuff.
cause you know why?!
he is a flirt by the outside.
and he seriously have a softer inside.
wahsey.
i super cannot stop smiling at the though of him.
together with the aisle.
AND HE EMAIL ME THIS PICTURE.

he said this picture was one of the reasons he want to settle down to one and to get married.blady hell. you see. a sexy wife to come back to and stuff. boy will always be boys. their way of thinking are always alike...bla bla bla.

BY THE WAY.

this song danish sang to me every night before he hang up the phone.

eventhough he suck at it.

the lyrics to the song are stuck in my petite mind.

he's such an arse.

(:

"Girl,there's no one that get me the way that you do.

i just cant explain that there's something about you.

that gets my emotional thing goes inside.

no matter how i tried,i just cannot hide.

what i feel when you simply walk pass my way.

when you smile,it shine right into me ,i think.

i sit here all alone thinking about you day and night.

cause for me it feels so right.

[ CHORUS: i just want you close.

cause you make me smile.

i just can-not get.. you off my mind.

with each kiss,you blow me away.

and without you,i think i'll go crazy..

for your love..i wi.ll do any.thing.

cause to me..

you are are my everything..

ohhh.. ]

Boy,there's no one that gets me the way you could.

i just cant explain it,there's something you do.

the sun shines much brighter when iam with you.

and when you kiss my lips.

i feel so brand new.

Boy you always know when iam feeling down.

and you know how to turn my frown upside down.

all the cute things you do,simply tick.les my heart.

we will never be apart.

[ CHORUS. ]

all my dreams all come true.

when you walk into my life.

it seems so unreal.

and i am so glad that youre mine.

iam so glad to be yours.

and its so good to be true.

but i know this is real.

and i know that i love you.

[ CHORUS. ]

ohhh.

you are my everything.

you are my everything."

ohhlalalalala~
feeling happy.

WELL I AM DONE HERE.

2008-08-16T04:13:00.003+08:00

well mates. i just can't set my butt off to bed.

may thanks to that addiction danish gave me larh.

swensen's orange sherbet.

its so blady worth it larh.

ohh man 1litre of it larh sia.

1 litre for 12plus or 15 bucks.

i think.

well he's loved though.

much much love.

iam still munching on it now.

while blogging.

danish = nuw.

TRUE!

cheeky laughs*

he knows why larh can?

cause he's a gemini two.

he love orange sherbert.

he hate tofu two.

etc.

like danish said,"ETC. explain alot already."

"so dont elaborate."

"let people assume."

haha.

iam so crazy.

err.

aww today's

mister shazli's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

you are born in the zoo.

donkey,zebra are your friends.

and the MONKEY is you..!

~lalala..

[ "i farking can't find his picture that i like,but i think this will do very well as a replacement for the meantime." ]

FRIDAY.

last night. i went to expos with my famy.eat.eat.eat.

are the three words that trully explains our outing.

burger "ramlee."

fried white mushroom.

fried mee hoon.

cheesey hotdogs.

"murtabak."

blueberry drink.

&& there was a live performance.

wahsey.

my ears was almost tone deaf.

HSOMG.

damn!

i just can't stand malay songs.

then there was this "MEGA" singer that korkor luq went crazy about.serious shit larh fark.

IAM DONE HERE.

2008-08-14T22:21:00.005+08:00

well today i never sleep the whole day since yesterday. well practically cause i wake up at 5plus in the late afternoon. (:

then went to have breakfast at afganistan with timmy && drake.later which i knw i had washed cassandra's tank

[ sleeping beau. in action. ]

[ that petite lil friend of mine. ]

&& did some blogging. well. just can't get enough of it ever since i changed the background && stuff. well you see.

then later at around 12plus meet afam at tampines library. he is like my current tutor for maths.since daren ain't free. so well he's doing a great job making me understand differentiation. URGHS. that suck. then later which we spend more time chatting then doing more revision. but we did okay? at least larh kan!? laughs*

well we practically laugh here && there.

atmost least of fun larh.

[ at TOYS"R"US. some child-like syndrome. ]

then we set off on our different journey. me to hospital && him to chalet.well a photo always speak a thousand words.

[ once a dreamer always a dreamer. ]

[ like father like daughter. ]
[ that's a definite. ]

WELL IAM DONE HERE!

2008-08-13T20:08:00.003+08:00

WEDNESDAY

i spent the whole day today sleeping.

realising afam's msg on my hp.

DAMN!

lucky i don't need to go.cause i'am so going to be late.

then i spent my petang with cassandra.

love love love right?

&& i did some research about it.

Red-eared Slider = Cassandra Garwin

TAXONOMY and EVOLUTION

The Red-eared Slider (Trachemys scripta elegans) is a semi-aquatic turtle (terrapin) belonging to the family Emydidae. It is a native of the southern United States, but has become common in various areas of the world due to the pet trade. They are very popular pets in the United States, the Netherlands, Canada, and England.

The Red-eared Slider (RES) is a member of the order Testudines, which contains nearly 250 species. In the United States and Canada members of this genus are usually referred to as turtles. However, in the UK they are split into Turtles (aquatic), Tortoises (land), and Terrapins (semi-aquatic). All turtles and tortoises may also be referred to as "chelonians". RES were formerly classified as Chrysemys scripta elegans.

BEHAVIOUR

The female Red-eared Slider grows to be 25-30 cm (10-12 in) in length and males 20-25 cm (8-10 in). They are almost entirely aquatic, but do leave the water to bask in the sun and lay eggs. These reptiles are deceptively fast and are also excellent swimmers. They hunt for prey and will attempt to capture it when the opportunity presents itself. They are very aware of predators and people and generally shy away from them. In fact, the RES frantically slides off rocks and logs when approached - hence the name.
Contrary to popular misconception, Red-eared Sliders do not produce saliva, but--like most aquatic turtles--they have fixed tongues. This is the reason they must eat their food in water

ohh well. iam mixed.

2008-08-12T15:51:00.006+08:00

ohh well.
i just felt like updating.
so here i am.
(:
ohh practically.
SATURDAY was superb.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

haha.
i was there at marina square. it was so packed with matreps.and i saw several unexpected boys. a few of junkies. and some jewels. but then being there with sufi. i have to say i hated the crowd cause if ever its possible,i just dont want people to know that i am like currently going out with someone particular.but then i also dont care mush you see. we went to have dinner at secret recipe.where i had cheesecake.yummy yum. then i went to raffles place to have a sit at the padang with sufi then i proceed to the city link.cause i can not tahan the heat. so blady hot.

soon after the fireworks came.beautiful sight you see.very romantic though.the first and hopefully the last time i have to see such beau without someone loved.cause for the past years. halfie darling was around. wrapped in his arms i still remember those moments i am sure to cherish like i cherish no others. like sab as said times over times again that no other guy can replace whatever halfie had done and he's sure no one can take halfie's place.laugh* moments like this really make me want to go running back to him. to be devoted to him again.well. i think iam just living life as a dream when iam with him. and i really want to moved out to the reality world where i am sure to find someone better or a replica.okay enough of the past i think. later which sufi send me home. i went out again to meet drake at city hall underpass. the rest of the night was heaven..wee~

SUNDAY was slow. sunday was a sleeping day. i woke up around 12plus.thanks to baby for waking me up from my lala~ land. well. its practically cause we had a plan to go out to find my num red flipflop at pasiris ehub there. then i was really tired you see. thanks to the night before. laughs.iam so in love with danish.well he knows why larh.its between us two,"fiancee". we were like so.ehem*ehem*.okay enough of yesterday lets talk about today. baby took a bathe at my place. then knowing she can't fit unto some of my pants. laughs* see larh. who getting fatter. * evil laughter * then she get herself into some green pants. later i ate nasi lemak at home. yum yum. my breakfast at 12noon. then we went off to pasir ris. before that meeting my huge piggy at my bustop. need to pass him the adobe CD thingy.

later at pasir ris we met jonathan some EX lysian. in which he refused to give more discount. but its okay. with baby's privilege. its enough for me ready.then later we got some random idea to go to afgan there to get myself a red eared terrapin.

way cool shit xia. i super love love cassandra. my new boredom killer.

then later in which we set off to our own different routes. i went to meet my cuzie and baby went to meet javier. haha.

"ohh well darling. DONT THINK TO MUCH CAN? all times spent are well cherished.Eventhough long or short. i love you super duper much && i know you know."

NEXT happening was that me and my crazy jewel undergo some singing sessions at her palace. laughs* we and our dreams.our studio. our band. our WHATEVER larh can?

later towards the end danish fetch me home.yay! yay! ive got enough of somebody larh sey. really. i dont know why but i just want to be me again. free like a bird.but i love danish though.

MONDAY was a drag.in the morning i came to school with cuzie to have a jog at the school's track. later which we found ourselves exhausted to death. we run and jog and sing all at the time span of one pathetic hour.

LATER took a bath,then went to mac to have some chix spagetti from grinning gecko.without much ado, i placed my hands together and like ast pray so i'll be able to see my eye candies there.And guess what the moment i place my hand down i saw that hafiz guy.serious shit larh. i almost want to jump out of my seat. it was then i ast pray again to see another. but this time it was a lil longer in which i saw a the mac guy at the other end of the entrance talking to his sport and wellness guy behing a pillar.but he set off soon after. hafiz smiled at me though. "eyy tak tahu malu eyy you?" cuzie said.

this goes to the guy i saw at the library. he was so damn cute i swear to god. i was strucked by his charisma.DAAMMN!
later danish joined us.splendid.but for awhile only cause he missed me.he cocked i supposed. i guess he just want to wash his eyes in nanyang.later after being abundant by my jewels.syamim came to school to study.he said he was bored so find me. i know. i know. but why not right? i myself was about to be alone. NEXT happenning.

Darren Roanoke (Romany Malco) , the star player of the Toronto Maple Leafs , is suffering from stress because his wife, Prudence Roanoke (Meagan Good) , has left him for Jacques "Le Coq" Grandé (Justin Timberlake) . The stress causes his hand to shake, which affects his hockey performance. Jane Bullard (Jessica Alba) enlists the support of Guru Maurice Pitka (Mike Myers) to help Darren with his stress so that the team can hopefully break their losing streak.

the love guru.GEREK giler.intimacy = INTO-ME-I-SEE. syamim can't stop laughing sia.serious.it is a must see. i so love the shawty. *evil laugh* "now then you feel hw i feel!" ahah. i tak boleh tahan sey. i should have seen with drake. then i would like have a chance to bite him. NOWHERE = NOW HERE. ahah. later we went to have a look at MCG at e block. where i found out alot about the individual there. woah. syamim really knows alot about them though. their dirty secrets. laugh*

TUESDAY was a late day for me. i plan to go study with afam at 4plus or 5 which later i end up coming at 6:20. thanks afam for waiting for this lazy bum here though. at the time was went i learn alot about "BJ". laugh* nana was super wory if that bj have tried doing some stuff at me. well. as i told her. iam untouchable. really. well afam teaching really went into my head. like seriously sia. haha. i was like practising while temaning amir while he play takraw. ohh well i forgot the highlight of today.you know what i saw that cheers guy. i so damn jump out of my seat in the bus you know. i was sleeping when i was suddenly awakened by the sudden stop.i realised it was only at hougang then something just told me to look ot of the window. && as i did i saw this guy.he seems so familiar by the back then i keep looking till i recognise who he is. he just alight from a 101 bus.&& he wake to the hougang mrt.ohh god where on earth could he be living. seriously i like him. && i can't deny that fact. grins*

"ohh afam. please take care of yourself okay dude. some girl aint worth the place in your heart. serious shit. well. you can always count on us to be there for you. some people just dont know how to treasure their mates well."ohh!iam not trying to say some people are wrong here or what so ever. but i really do have my reasons why i support some people.keep this in mind mates.!

" the BEST man never always WIN! "

well iam done here.

Inconsistencys of my moods.

2008-08-08T00:56:00.005+08:00

its like thursday today alright.
it started off well.
i came school for like maths lectures only.
and then later i was like the first few to reach.
so chit chat with my gundu,mael.
gosh!
there's like so many to say.
then later meet sufy awhile at the library.
i also send the overdued story book back.
then sufy teman me to south canteen to buy wedges.
awww.
guess what.
i met that 'CHEERS' guys.
that full perfect torso.
fark fark.
this time ,our eyes met as we walk pass eachother.
forgetting sufy's existance.
i wondered off for awhile.
later telling sufy the happenings.
&& guess what?
that 'CHEERS' guy acerli turned to look at me again.
after he passed me.
and sufy was also looking back at him.
MAN!.
i sure melted for those few pathetic moments.
i ought to secretly take some pictures of this guy.
and let you drool.
GRINNS..
the latter acerli spois my whole day.
that freaking 'cibai'ing AYUSNIE,
was like giving me attitude again.
this time i can't take it already.
i've make up my mind to complain to daddy.
I TAK BOLEH TAHAN READDY XIA.
serious shit.
she was like.
"ehh your presentation over ready?"
wahseyy.
enter class only KENA already.
"fark you larh mother fo.,can?"
fast forward..
i met the 'MAC' guy at mac today.
predictable yaww.
haha.
he was like with a couple of girls.
which i supposed were the normal routines
of a footballer.
WTH.
i dont give a damn much.
caused iam satisfide with that 'CHEERS' guy for today.
next next.
i went home with syamim.
saw this guy that was sound asleep.

^POOR PIGGY^
then meet sufy under my block for some stuff.
then iam like facing you nw.
the mixture of;

CHEEKY + ENXIOUS + EXCITED + DRAINED + MAD
=thursday.
WELL IAM DONE HERE.

at lily's

2008-08-05T16:09:00.006+08:00

at lily's place.
[ P.S which is also firzuan's place. ]
a stress reliever.
well they know me super duper well i guess.
pardon guys. i heve better things in mind.
(:(:

the ABOVE was a given.

the latter was for back up.

imagine a night without having your in-laws at home.

while poor little ALICE was sleeping in the nursery.

it was a KAABBOOOOMMMM for us there.

for those who missed our meet up last night.

such a waste mates.

the funny part was the GIVEN wasn't enough.

so we bought some for back up.

imagine 11 people having to share 5 bottles.

exclude me of course.

woah.

that's like super NOT enough.

so drake and timothy came prepared.

c# is a killer.

2008-08-05T02:09:00.003+08:00

i super hate my c# tutor.
the farking part is that iam stuck with her for my remaining years in nanyang.
well iam just seeking for an appreciation larh dey.
nothing more.
have some heart and soul can can?
you're like super thinking of yourself that you neglect us.
me.
wahfark.
lets cut matters short.
i'll be patience okay.
i'll do my part to not fail.
and make sure you do yours as a tutor.
and be responsible.
and to all the mates out there that witness what happen at block M justnow.
dont worry.
"I'LL BE OKAY"

WELL I GUESS IAM DONE.

ohh man.

2008-08-05T01:10:00.004+08:00

you suck big time MISTER.
i super hate you now.
i feel very disgusted with you.
really wish i never allow myself to get to know you.
FARK YOU.
what the hell happened to me justnow?
real SHIT xia.
well i know iam like easy to be bullied.
but so what?
does that like give you the RIGHTS!?
FARK YOU.
well no offence to anyone in particular.
well iam SERIOUSLY not happy.
iam fine with normal bullying.
BUT WEY MISTER.
EVERYTHING HAS ITS LIMITS ALRIGHT?
CARRY me.
GRIP me.
BITE me.
KISS me.
what you think?
your property is it?
got itchy hands is it?
cant keep it to yourself is it?
FARK YOU.
well i guess iam too giving.
most of the part i was wrong two.
should not have slack especially with you around.
EEIIIUUUU.
this goes to that one you.
WELL FARK YOU.
IAM DONE HERE.
[ P.S. this is my blog. ]

ohh well. i was bullied.

2008-08-03T23:04:00.005+08:00

today..
went to airport..
on my way to the AIRPORT..
i found this random lover...

...of mine.
he was so adorable plus plus.
"SCCCCRRRREEEEEEAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMSSSS!"

fasst forward....
later instead of studying at STARBUCKS.
we roam all over the airport.
from level four to one.
from terminal three to two.
&& guess what we had FUN!!

they treat me like small kid xia. SERIOUS SHIT. the push me around literally with the lugagage trolley.well we had fun right?!
EYE WASHING.CHIT CHATTING.BULLSHITTING.JOKING...
WELL IAM DONE.

murdereous

2008-08-02T00:23:00.006+08:00

FEELINGS ARE KILLING ME.

when the feeling of hatred over rule the rest.
mixing with the feeling of love.
confusion rises.
DAMN.

some friends were curious abt some words ive used;

1.blot·to
Pronunciationb[ blot-oh ]
–adjective Slang. very drunk; so drunk as to be unconscious or not know what one is doing.

[ P.S. i so love getting drunk nowadays. ]

2.chaste
–adjective, chast·er, chast·est.
I. refraining from sexual intercourse that is regarded as contrary to morality or religion; virtuous.
II. virgin.
III. not engaging in sexual relations; celibate.
IV. free from obscenity; decent: chaste conversation.
V. undefiled or stainless: chaste, white snow.
VI. pure in style; not excessively ornamented; simple.
VII. Obsolete. unmarried.

3.bon·kers
–adjective Slang. mentally unbalanced; mad; crazy.

4.bim·bo
–noun, plural -bos, -boes. Slang.
I. a foolish, stupid, or inept person.
II. a man or fellow, often a disreputable or contemptible one.
III. Disparaging and Offensive. an attractive but stupid young woman, esp. one with loose morals.

ANW.

the happenings of this week is that on WEDNESDAY ;
DAREN's BIRTHDAY.

IAM DONE HERE.

down.

2008-07-29T18:10:00.008+08:00

ohh fark.
feeling alil of abundance.
hell yeah..guess thats part of life. being loved.being ditched.being left alone.being WHATEVER larh.
iam so killing myself sooner or later.just couldnt bring myself to go on another day.URGHS..can pple like stop being judgemental && stuff.
pay a lil tribute to those who was always there.like it always had been.
"Once got a better new,the former will be left behind." just as memories.treated like trash.not being literally said but still. YES.
i get it.ive learn to understand where i actually stand in yr life.
STOP WHEREVER YOU ARE & SPARE ME A THOUGHT.
fyi.i'll always be ard eventhough you dnt need me.dont push me ard cause iam starting to hate being there for you.
cause i knw youre always taken care off by yr newbies && iam no more needed.
ohh well.guess the only thing that i cud really put my heart && soul in currently are music.

OBVIOUsLY..

2008-07-27T02:09:00.002+08:00

this is my version.
ha ha.
RANDOMISM.

Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this guy,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.

He's got a girlfriend
She's always around him then
Cos she's 17
She's in the dance crew
She'd kill me

For so many nights now
I find myself thinking about him now.

'Cause obviously,
He's out of my reach
But how can I lose
He keeps botherin' me and
I know I never will be her enough for him.

No, no
Never will be her enough for him.

Gotta escape now
Get on a jet now. yeah
Off to aussie and that's where I'll stay,
for three years.

I'll put it behind me(i'll put it behind me)
Go to a place where he cant find me. yeah.

'Cause obviously,
He's out of my reach,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause he'll never be mine
I know i never will be her enough for him.
No, no
Never will be her enough for him

He's outta my head
And I never know where I stand
Cos I know I'm not her enough for him
He's not enough for me (for me, for me)

lalalal~

the....

2008-07-27T01:45:00.004+08:00

Shots Of The Actions.

our meetups on thursday.

that 'zebra' me.

that seducing pose

her guy is her current bf.^

boo! firdaus

her leg super SEXY!!

pardon my doings(:

2008-07-27T01:06:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not updating,MATES! I just find it alil burden to set my butt to the chair for minutes just to update you daily. Err . Recently ive got enough of bullshitting. I went to school with sufi for only two or if iam not wrong once for this patetic week. Guess i am in need of a reality check, to my opinion everyone around me need one two. SERIOUSLY. cause to come to think of it i && sufi arent together acerli. But some of my newbies thought we were. Like why bother? Its my blady life right? ERGHS. Second thoughts are always in my petite mind. SHOULD I? SHOULD I NOT? the thoughts of whether i wil last long with the latter? ERR or is it that iam done with whatever i have now ? or is it like WHAT?? IDK larh sial. I want to be secured in the RIGHT kind of arms,you see? Like what that BITCHY LILY had said when she saw me with sufy. "SE KEPING XIA !!" Fark off larh can? You made me look for others. You made me rethink what i was sure off . After like we really are into it. YOU CAME ALONG WITH YOUR FARKING DIRTY MOUTH..ARGHS.[ p.s. really hope that LILY i refering to read this entry. ]Now i am stuck with deciding you fark.BBAAAAIIKKK!!!. Having that MAC guy in mind, that EMO looking guy, that HAFIZ guy ...I am sure alot more will come along. This is what made me REthink...LILY said," AIIII! there's like better choices out there,why wanting to settle down so early with a _ _ _ _ _ somemore.eyy dont drop my water face alright.See larh. this trouble you invite inn yrslf you know. if i were you i wouldve appreciate the former one." dots.

"AHYA! HELP! I need somebody,
HELP! not just anybody,
HELP! you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's HELP in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

HELP me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
HELP me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.

HELP me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
HELP me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please HELP me.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's HELP in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

HELP me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
HELP me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me, HELP me, HELP me, oh"

lalalala~
iam so drained larh sey.things are just NOT going my way.it seems like its not only me having problems.Even baby also have problems with the currents.ARGHS.no more fienu to turn to.no more fienu to protect me.NO MORE EVERYTHING.

blues.

2008-07-22T01:52:00.004+08:00

(:
MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY>MONDAY

during our 1hr break,there's this 'VEGE' that is super NOT ciow bu. was wearing this shorts.then bending down,showing her NOT so good looking "PEEKU" at our table. which then i realised that yq darling is observing with much enthusiast. wahhseyy. haha.
guess what i did next? while he was still observing. i say loudly, " OHH WELL,NOW I KNOW WHY YOU DONT WANT 'LAYAN' ME LEYYY?! CAUSE YOU BUSY LOOKING AT SOMEONE'S PEEKU!"
i swear i saw him blush.serious xia. but of course larh ,he deny all the way. then one more prove that he was so INTO that girl's butt was that he was eating with his chopsticks upside down larh sey. haha. aint that like duhhh! YQ! YQ! YOUR MAMA IS SO FATT..haha. AIYO.AIYO. you see guys nowadays.ERRRXING leyy. haha.

YOURE SO RIGHT UNLESS YOURE PROVEN WRONG,my dear.dots.

then later after WEB DESIGN classes. i was like urgh. then i entertain samy's crap && taking photos of him emoing plus gaying.

[ P.S HOPE THIS ENTRY NEVER OFFEND ANY OF MY BELOVED MATES,EITHER SAMY OR EVEN YQ.(: NO MATTER WHAT I STILL LOVE BOTH OF YOU ALRIGHT?!LOVELOVE<3 ]

madly in love with...

2008-07-20T02:07:00.003+08:00

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.

DOUGIE POYNTER.
boredom is killing me.&& i superly hate drunkard.BAAAIIIKKK!!

2008-07-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

this message is for all. i am not refering to any patetic soul to be exact. this is random. cause i just feel like saying it. i may be very nice && i can also be very farked up two. once ive made up my mind there's nothing that could persuade me to change it. if ever you existed in my life && was once hurt by me. iam god damn sorry.
please larh okay. just move on. iam here not to impress any arse. this is my farking space where i scribble my daily lifeprints. so if you're here to read.limit yourslf to only reading. && i farking dont mind if you want to say something at my taggboard but for goodness sake.its not a corner for you to tell my mates what ive done to you && whatever bullshit that took place.if this entry hurt anyone somehow. so be it.

satty.

2008-07-19T16:51:00.003+08:00

ohh weell.basically iam left at home while my dady,mumy && lil brud went to melacca to go visiting. so iam like OKAY.they left at about 3 in the morning. so i was planning to go out to slack with some friends but last minute change of plans.which later around 4 am ,this group of guys pick me up to go for skate.(: it was way awesome you know. i was like. wee~ we went to east coast cause i want to slack at the beach.&& this time timmy was alil bad. he was crazy over the fact that his dudette is still in the hospital. therefore he was so like crazy but at least it never bothers me. cause all i know is that when they start skating i was like dozing off. i was lying in one 'pondok' that was near by.(: wee~ then when i woke up it was like 6 plus. then we went to eat macy there. which took us like 2hrs to pull our buttocks off the chair && proceed home. drake send me home this time reluctantly. haha. cause jossy's house was out of the way. drake was so like URGH. that he smack my butt. which then i return with a bite on his shoulder. haha. REVENGE is so SWEET. haha.then reached home sweet home.give drake a peck on the cheeks && i was off to do some editing of photos.

the captions in the photos holds a thousands meanings.

then later sufy msg. then i met him around 1 plus at may neat TM there. which later i bum into berg && raisha. haha . that farking couple. haha. WHATEVER shit larh okay.....

***thurrrsssddaaayyy.

2008-07-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

i had POC lab test justnow && it was difficult.i answered the 1st && 2nd questions w/o having doubts but still the third holds alot of marks though. URGHS!! then iam like WHATEVER larh. let the marks be of waht i deserve.OHH FARK!!today i went to RP, otw there in the MRT,i came across this super big big girl/teen i guess,

during 3hrs break to send baby's stuff. i so love her okay? Even sufy was jealous about it you know. haha. cause yesterday went i go accompany him to SIM LIM to get his electronic tools && WHATEVER board. haha. then he teman me to baby's hse to get her stuff. then i was like so long upstairs that he smoke two sticks && started to maddling with his electronic stuff. poor thing. but i swear i never forced him to come along though. haha. (: you know what? sufy is like so related ot me larh dey. he knows my lepaking places last time.&& the person iam blooded with.ohhhllalalalla.
then much happen after that. then justnow in the morning i went to school with sufy. board the super early bus cause of POC test then i was like studying the whole way that i pity sufy,having to come to school early with me && i never layan him.after reaching back to NYP, i went to meet fatin then play the guitar like so fun larh dey.COOL SHIT. wee~ then i enter HTML class 1hr latenext shocking thing is that nothing of that class i acerli remember learnign cause i was like sleeping.SNORES* then after school i went home with SUFI && that he waited for me 2hrs cause his classes ends at 4pm. URGHHHSSS!!

&& WAIT about love. iam NOT raddy larh sey. i dont want to be tightdown yet. i still want to mingle around without boundaries. iam not raddy to be like before. To be devoted to one all over again.FARK.FARK.FARK. hopefully people understands alright?! can we like LOVE without beiing together or something.OHH FARK!! iam so addicted to this line. people surrounding me recently will know why. haha.

lalalala~

2008-07-16T01:29:00.004+08:00

BAPOK IN THE MAKING.

DINNER WITH THEM.OHH FARK!

tuesday's such a turn off nowadays.but today was a total change.REALLY. see hor. today iam like supposed to go for science night classes at yio chu kang sec. but it turns out that iam more attract to stay with the soundcart people.REALLY.they like fun to be around with you see. with their never ending RACIST jokes. haha .they always make fun of me && my bracey. ohh FARK. haha. FIRE FARK. ahha.gosh. so addicted.haha.then i saw missy lady under a huge tree along a dark alley/pathway.ohh FARK. i hate color 09. && the mee goreng justnow was ERRRMMMM. goodnight.

monday monday.

2008-07-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

the starting of a few buzy weeks to come.URGHS.projects are everywhere xia.DUEDATES && DEADLINES.ARGHS. give me a period can can?! i went for class late this time.then meet sufi during 3hr break then sleep then go for web design class.ARGHS. i finally know who is nawal. haha. that girl.GOSHH! now i knw why my cuzy hates her.haha. EEEIIIUUUU. such a blab.ha ha. then later after school i went to meet all the GARDEN mates. oooohhhh shitt. there's luqman. haha && his beau girlfriend.(: she's prone to wearing short low neck dresses.arghs. such a standard.&& this time she never smile at me.FARK.okay whatever larh. maybe cause i was communicating with the minahs but still..i no owe you no money.SOO YOU BETTA FORCE YASLF TO SMILE.MADDERFARKER.(:(: okay i so love msging with someone.he's so ERRMMMM. haha.

sory mates for the dark photos.
JUST QUINCH YOUR BLADY EYES
ALIL TO HAVE A LOOK
ALRIGHT TITTIES.
byebye.

last day of the week.

2008-07-11T21:51:00.004+08:00

[ ^ if you guys are interested to know abt this pic.HELP YRSLF BY ASKING SAB.^ ]

finally its friday.but i was like not looking forward to this weekend acerli.time is moving a lil to fast you see.come on give me a break GOD.haha(: so many things happens today.sort of happy somethings happen && sort of sad to find out some things two.IDIOT. iam clueless about the feeling iam going thru now.SERIOUSLY larh xia.which GUY? stop & DECIDE.opportunities doesnt come knocking on doors twice you know. so like korkor LUQ had said yesterday,.GRAB whatever comes around cause even if the one coming later is better cause you must always remember who was around when you needed one to be ard.GOSH.iam like stuck now.i thot ive moved on to forget that classy CRUSH i had.but he set the mark larh sial.if i knew its gonna be like this.i wouldnt even open my heart willingly to love when one never offer.FARKTARD. okay fine.i'll stick to LUQ's theory. i'll make do whatever's ard for the time being.(: frankly sepeaking i hate being a GEMINI cause iam like so undecisive,having two hearts.URGHS.anw.other than tt school was awesome.everything goes as i want it to be.the way i would like to end the week i went home with sufi.he knows more now.i guess.okay let time bring whatever's coming along.i dont want to like rush things cause it'll lead to no good aft all.lets concentrate on my upcoming testes.after all i'll manage on my own for the time being. fyi mates i signed up for the thailand trip.to teach the youngsters there IT && science && whatever stuff larh. really hope to get to go.(: