Saturday, May 3, 2008
the STARTER*
there's alot to be told here.but i wouldn't start today.
up to date,all that i could say now is that i just turn over a new leaf.leaving the past and moving on. without someone i really loved before. HALFIE.
and now all that i could wish for is NOT to have known you at all.cause it hurts me really badly to have to move on after being with you like for two years and 2 months exactly today. depending on you every single second in my life then.i have to suffer now.alone.i am sure i was stupid to let you go just like that.within seconds on the line,i call it off with you. on your special day. your 18th birthday. i am sorry. really i am.but you place me in an unbearable situation. i could not stand you any longer,dear. you blamed me for whatever happened between us. what was left for us is nothing. cause i end our relationship on the day,you left to pursue your dreams.i could not bare the feelings that you're not going to be there for me anymore. having to put up with your nonsense all this while. suddenly i have to adapt to your absence. how could i?!
but what is done,its done. clearly i cant erased the last phone conversation we had from my memory . the moments you said you don't trust me any more. it keeps repeating itself in mind late at night,at first i couldn't believe it. it was depressing for me. that that was the first time you reprimanded me for whatever mistake i did. we're over. you're so far away from me. how am i to just depend on you for my safety like i usually did. you hardly know what happens to me here,while you're there. arghs. my "drinking pals" said its a waste. after we sacrifices so many things just to be together. happily.then it all ends just like that. so fast. without a second thought.
frankly i miss being loved by you,dear. your existance in my life have grown to be an addiction.
ily. this is for you,mister.
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much love
told you about it at 4:42 PM
there's alot to be told here.but i wouldn't start today. up to date,all that i could say now is that i just turn over a new leaf.leaving the past and moving on. without someone i really loved before. HALFIE. and now all that i could wish for is NOT to have known you at all.cause it hurts me really badly to have to move on after being with you like for two years and 2 months exactly today. depending on you every single second in my life then.i have to suffer now.alone.i am sure i was stupid to let you go just like that.within seconds on the line,i call it off with you. on your special day. your 18th birthday. i am sorry. really i am.but you place me in an unbearable situation. i could not stand you any longer,dear. you blamed me for whatever happened between us. what was left for us is nothing. cause i end our relationship on the day,you left to pursue your dreams.i could not bare the feelings that you're not going to be there for me anymore. having to put up with your nonsense all this while. suddenly i have to adapt to your absence. how could i?! but what is done,its done. clearly i cant erased the last phone conversation we had from my memory . the moments you said you don't trust me any more. it keeps repeating itself in mind late at night,at first i couldn't believe it. it was depressing for me. that that was the first time you reprimanded me for whatever mistake i did. we're over. you're so far away from me. how am i to just depend on you for my safety like i usually did. you hardly know what happens to me here,while you're there. arghs. my "drinking pals" said its a waste. after we sacrifices so many things just to be together. happily.then it all ends just like that. so fast. without a second thought. frankly i miss being loved by you,dear. your existance in my life have grown to be an addiction. ily. this is for you,mister.
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