Hello back. laughs* I was and still am lazy to update my blog larh dey. Serious shit larh can?! Alot had happened for the past few days. Few ain't that good to remember and some are always engraved hard as great memories larh can? ha ha. Currently doing well as a whole. But some life experience really change my views towards certain people. To be exact, my fark-ing maternity auntys and uncles..They are full-timed ball sacks. Fark them can? Talking about them can really make me frustrated all over again larh sial.They are a group of people ain't worth your respect at all. Ohh Almighty. Bless my soul. I really dont know what to say. But they are lucky that i am just their niece not their younger sister or whatever fark. Cause if i were they each would have got a piece of my mind already. Ohh shit. okay.. sory sory. i didn't mean to start a post like this but well i am expressing myself here . To who else can i really use all this vulgarities too. Right? I mean in person you hardly hear me swear. So here i go. [ P.S this is my blog. ]
Back on Tuesday, it was my major computing mathematics paper. So well you know me. Very kiasu. ha ha. Stress larh dude! So i was like err. err. Ask Afam to study with me in the early morning around 9plus gitu at school. So yeah i meet Afam and Nana at kofu there to eat. I had my usual yong tao fu curry stuff. Then Ifah joined us. Teaching me and Afam the stuupidd graph thingy. Then Fazreen joined. Seriously this time was like my first time to like slack with 03 more than my own 04. Well it was practically because Daren was like working the whole week and had no free time to like study in a group so i had to like find Afam. The first exam i actuallly studied with them. Even Sabril i didn't ask out to study. Serious shit larh dey. ha ha. Fastforward-ing. After paper i went home straight thinking i can like snore on my beloved again. But well i waa wrong, Mummy called asking me to go visit Mamu Sam at the hospital and that she'll be there shortly. err. I am an obedient " snow white ",ya 'noe! And you want to know what's with the snow white. ha ha. it was a name my korkor rafie gave very long time ago. During my primary school days i am well knowned to be-friend short guys..And its a curse that i don't click with girls around me. All boys. Strictly boys. ha ha. Cool ain't it.But well i agree with all the guys in the world that girls are trouble in any form. ha ha. No offence. But i have no doubts that it true. ha ha.
Next came Wednesday . I went to meet my fiancee, Danish at Peninsula. Well we were supposed to buy this really stuupid undies together but in the end we forgot. So our meet up defeat the purpose in the first place. We went window shopping for stuff like crumpler bags, swatch watch and fossil leather goods. Things that i had in mind of own-ing. Like really leyy. Cause iam so gonna buy a huge shoe rack where i can like stuff the dozen dozen of shoes i have. ha ha. i strongly believe that shoes, watches and bags are collectable items.. Later meeting jewel at her place to slack. we had so many laughters alright. Acerli planned to like study for my O's. But her classic guitar left untouched, i can't bare the itch. ha ha. We ate asam pedas ikan plus fried egg. With chilled soya milk. yummy yum. the desert was orange.
Then came Thursday . It came like a bullet train. Daddy had a call for the hospital that Mamu was in a shortage of breathe. And seeking permssion to hold on to him or just let him go in peace. Like forever. I fear that too. But while i was like rushing to the hospital,the seconds flow so slowly that i ought to ask my mum to step out of the car while i drive instead. The sense of urgency just stayed in me like for the whole few minutes that took me to reach to the hospital. I keep blaming the people surrounding me for delaying from getting there. Ohh shit. The worsr senarios played in my mind like on repeat mode. The thought of losing someone so dear to me. But all the way thru i put up a bold surface. Not want-ing to be seen as a weak-ling. Fark larh. Why must mummy contact all those hypocritical beings to come down to the hospital to have a look at their eldest brother for the presume last time? I was there. I witness the tears shed by individuals. bla bla bla~ whatever fark larh. Some didn't even bother to 'salam' when him when they arrive. Just stand by the side and like stare at him. wtf. wtf. Might as well don't bother coming right?! Some who wasn't that caring enough when he was strong before, came. Came up to him and like whisper some prayers into his ears to like remember him of the Almighty. I see all those hidden smiles. err. I hold my unsatisfaction deep down. Never to burst. Later once i was like really sure that Mamu was doing okay. i left to the waiting sofas to chit chat with Daddy. He was so engross with his photo taking game that he never layan me. So bored larh sey. I was preparing myself for the worst larh can?! i don't want to hold Mamu much longer if it's like gonna hurt him more. At only 63years. I love him so dearly. That deep down i never want him to go. But the Almighty loves him more like no other. So i prayed for the best. Even if the Almighty was to take him whenever now, i prayed for the simpliest way. Never hurting him in any form. And i really hope what he had gone thru for his last living days,were enough to pay for his wrongdoings for the pass 63years of his life. I prayed for him to be blessed. And beg for the Almighty's mercy towards him.
the machine that closely monitored Mamu Sam's heartbeat.And it proves to be very weak.
It was 4:47am. I was still waiting at the hospital.
Mamu was warded at ward 47 bed 39.
This is my no. 10 Mamu Yahya.My saviour. A true gangster.He's someone i respect so much cause he would risk his life just to save his family.He's never afraid to die.Cause he has nothing to lose.
My 5th Kala, Limah and her husband,Mamu Ali.
[ Before ]
[ Currently ]
my definition of love: " To love is to learn how to let go. "
And finally came Friday. It was like at...
Awesome. i went to visit Mamu Sam at the hospital around 2plus.There was nobody there unfortunately.So acompanied him till around 3plus.Later meeting Shyqah jewel at ITE simei entrance there.She just finished her soft ball tournament.And of coz larh she win larh okay?!We proceed to garden afterwards.
A video of my jewels and me doing our first ever sway cover.Its posted at youtube for the benefit of all though.This video really explained our outing.SPECTACULAR,right girls?
today was Amy dearest's 16th day,
"Happy birthday to you.you are born in the zoo.Zebra,Lions are your friends.And the monkey is you. *evil laughter.Ohh man! i love you much much. Hope you grow up into a elegant lady loved by all.May all your wishes come true darling. Just remember i will always be here no matter what happens."
much love:
WELL IAM DONE HERE.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Hello back. laughs* I was and still am lazy to update my blog larh dey. Serious shit larh can?! Alot had happened for the past few days. Few ain't that good to remember and some are always engraved hard as great memories larh can? ha ha. Currently doing well as a whole. But some life experience really change my views towards certain people. To be exact, my fark-ing maternity auntys and uncles..They are full-timed ball sacks. Fark them can? Talking about them can really make me frustrated all over again larh sial.They are a group of people ain't worth your respect at all. Ohh Almighty. Bless my soul. I really dont know what to say. But they are lucky that i am just their niece not their younger sister or whatever fark. Cause if i were they each would have got a piece of my mind already. Ohh shit. okay.. sory sory. i didn't mean to start a post like this but well i am expressing myself here . To who else can i really use all this vulgarities too. Right? I mean in person you hardly hear me swear. So here i go. [ P.S this is my blog. ]
Back on Tuesday, it was my major computing mathematics paper. So well you know me. Very kiasu. ha ha. Stress larh dude! So i was like err. err. Ask Afam to study with me in the early morning around 9plus gitu at school. So yeah i meet Afam and Nana at kofu there to eat. I had my usual yong tao fu curry stuff. Then Ifah joined us. Teaching me and Afam the stuupidd graph thingy. Then Fazreen joined. Seriously this time was like my first time to like slack with 03 more than my own 04. Well it was practically because Daren was like working the whole week and had no free time to like study in a group so i had to like find Afam. The first exam i actuallly studied with them. Even Sabril i didn't ask out to study. Serious shit larh dey. ha ha. Fastforward-ing. After paper i went home straight thinking i can like snore on my beloved again. But well i waa wrong, Mummy called asking me to go visit Mamu Sam at the hospital and that she'll be there shortly. err. I am an obedient " snow white ",ya 'noe! And you want to know what's with the snow white. ha ha. it was a name my korkor rafie gave very long time ago. During my primary school days i am well knowned to be-friend short guys..And its a curse that i don't click with girls around me. All boys. Strictly boys. ha ha. Cool ain't it.But well i agree with all the guys in the world that girls are trouble in any form. ha ha. No offence. But i have no doubts that it true. ha ha.
Next came Wednesday . I went to meet my fiancee, Danish at Peninsula. Well we were supposed to buy this really stuupid undies together but in the end we forgot. So our meet up defeat the purpose in the first place. We went window shopping for stuff like crumpler bags, swatch watch and fossil leather goods. Things that i had in mind of own-ing. Like really leyy. Cause iam so gonna buy a huge shoe rack where i can like stuff the dozen dozen of shoes i have. ha ha. i strongly believe that shoes, watches and bags are collectable items.. Later meeting jewel at her place to slack. we had so many laughters alright. Acerli planned to like study for my O's. But her classic guitar left untouched, i can't bare the itch. ha ha. We ate asam pedas ikan plus fried egg. With chilled soya milk. yummy yum. the desert was orange.
Then came Thursday . It came like a bullet train. Daddy had a call for the hospital that Mamu was in a shortage of breathe. And seeking permssion to hold on to him or just let him go in peace. Like forever. I fear that too. But while i was like rushing to the hospital,the seconds flow so slowly that i ought to ask my mum to step out of the car while i drive instead. The sense of urgency just stayed in me like for the whole few minutes that took me to reach to the hospital. I keep blaming the people surrounding me for delaying from getting there. Ohh shit. The worsr senarios played in my mind like on repeat mode. The thought of losing someone so dear to me. But all the way thru i put up a bold surface. Not want-ing to be seen as a weak-ling. Fark larh. Why must mummy contact all those hypocritical beings to come down to the hospital to have a look at their eldest brother for the presume last time? I was there. I witness the tears shed by individuals. bla bla bla~ whatever fark larh. Some didn't even bother to 'salam' when him when they arrive. Just stand by the side and like stare at him. wtf. wtf. Might as well don't bother coming right?! Some who wasn't that caring enough when he was strong before, came. Came up to him and like whisper some prayers into his ears to like remember him of the Almighty. I see all those hidden smiles. err. I hold my unsatisfaction deep down. Never to burst. Later once i was like really sure that Mamu was doing okay. i left to the waiting sofas to chit chat with Daddy. He was so engross with his photo taking game that he never layan me. So bored larh sey. I was preparing myself for the worst larh can?! i don't want to hold Mamu much longer if it's like gonna hurt him more. At only 63years. I love him so dearly. That deep down i never want him to go. But the Almighty loves him more like no other. So i prayed for the best. Even if the Almighty was to take him whenever now, i prayed for the simpliest way. Never hurting him in any form. And i really hope what he had gone thru for his last living days,were enough to pay for his wrongdoings for the pass 63years of his life. I prayed for him to be blessed. And beg for the Almighty's mercy towards him.
the machine that closely monitored Mamu Sam's heartbeat.And it proves to be very weak.
It was 4:47am. I was still waiting at the hospital.
Mamu was warded at ward 47 bed 39.
This is my no. 10 Mamu Yahya.My saviour. A true gangster.He's someone i respect so much cause he would risk his life just to save his family.He's never afraid to die.Cause he has nothing to lose.
My 5th Kala, Limah and her husband,Mamu Ali.
[ Before ]
[ Currently ]
my definition of love: " To love is to learn how to let go. "
And finally came Friday. It was like at...
Awesome. i went to visit Mamu Sam at the hospital around 2plus.There was nobody there unfortunately.So acompanied him till around 3plus.Later meeting Shyqah jewel at ITE simei entrance there.She just finished her soft ball tournament.And of coz larh she win larh okay?!We proceed to garden afterwards.
A video of my jewels and me doing our first ever sway cover.Its posted at youtube for the benefit of all though.This video really explained our outing.SPECTACULAR,right girls?
today was Amy dearest's 16th day,
"Happy birthday to you.you are born in the zoo.Zebra,Lions are your friends.And the monkey is you. *evil laughter.Ohh man! i love you much much. Hope you grow up into a elegant lady loved by all.May all your wishes come true darling. Just remember i will always be here no matter what happens."
much love:
WELL IAM DONE HERE.
much love
told you about it at 2:29 AM
Hello back. laughs* I was and still am lazy to update my blog larh dey. Serious shit larh can?! Alot had happened for the past few days. Few ain't that good to remember and some are always engraved hard as great memories larh can? ha ha. Currently doing well as a whole. But some life experience really change my views towards certain people. To be exact, my fark-ing maternity auntys and uncles..They are full-timed ball sacks. Fark them can? Talking about them can really make me frustrated all over again larh sial.They are a group of people ain't worth your respect at all. Ohh Almighty. Bless my soul. I really dont know what to say. But they are lucky that i am just their niece not their younger sister or whatever fark. Cause if i were they each would have got a piece of my mind already. Ohh shit. okay.. sory sory. i didn't mean to start a post like this but well i am expressing myself here . To who else can i really use all this vulgarities too. Right? I mean in person you hardly hear me swear. So here i go. [ P.S this is my blog. ]
Back on Tuesday, it was my major computing mathematics paper. So well you know me. Very kiasu. ha ha. Stress larh dude! So i was like err. err. Ask Afam to study with me in the early morning around 9plus gitu at school. So yeah i meet Afam and Nana at kofu there to eat. I had my usual yong tao fu curry stuff. Then Ifah joined us. Teaching me and Afam the stuupidd graph thingy. Then Fazreen joined. Seriously this time was like my first time to like slack with 03 more than my own 04. Well it was practically because Daren was like working the whole week and had no free time to like study in a group so i had to like find Afam. The first exam i actuallly studied with them. Even Sabril i didn't ask out to study. Serious shit larh dey. ha ha. Fastforward-ing. After paper i went home straight thinking i can like snore on my beloved again. But well i waa wrong, Mummy called asking me to go visit Mamu Sam at the hospital and that she'll be there shortly. err. I am an obedient " snow white ",ya 'noe! And you want to know what's with the snow white. ha ha. it was a name my korkor rafie gave very long time ago. During my primary school days i am well knowned to be-friend short guys..And its a curse that i don't click with girls around me. All boys. Strictly boys. ha ha. Cool ain't it.But well i agree with all the guys in the world that girls are trouble in any form. ha ha. No offence. But i have no doubts that it true. ha ha.
Next came Wednesday . I went to meet my fiancee, Danish at Peninsula. Well we were supposed to buy this really stuupid undies together but in the end we forgot. So our meet up defeat the purpose in the first place. We went window shopping for stuff like crumpler bags, swatch watch and fossil leather goods. Things that i had in mind of own-ing. Like really leyy. Cause iam so gonna buy a huge shoe rack where i can like stuff the dozen dozen of shoes i have. ha ha. i strongly believe that shoes, watches and bags are collectable items.. Later meeting jewel at her place to slack. we had so many laughters alright. Acerli planned to like study for my O's. But her classic guitar left untouched, i can't bare the itch. ha ha. We ate asam pedas ikan plus fried egg. With chilled soya milk. yummy yum. the desert was orange.
Then came Thursday . It came like a bullet train. Daddy had a call for the hospital that Mamu was in a shortage of breathe. And seeking permssion to hold on to him or just let him go in peace. Like forever. I fear that too. But while i was like rushing to the hospital,the seconds flow so slowly that i ought to ask my mum to step out of the car while i drive instead. The sense of urgency just stayed in me like for the whole few minutes that took me to reach to the hospital. I keep blaming the people surrounding me for delaying from getting there. Ohh shit. The worsr senarios played in my mind like on repeat mode. The thought of losing someone so dear to me. But all the way thru i put up a bold surface. Not want-ing to be seen as a weak-ling. Fark larh. Why must mummy contact all those hypocritical beings to come down to the hospital to have a look at their eldest brother for the presume last time? I was there. I witness the tears shed by individuals. bla bla bla~ whatever fark larh. Some didn't even bother to 'salam' when him when they arrive. Just stand by the side and like stare at him. wtf. wtf. Might as well don't bother coming right?! Some who wasn't that caring enough when he was strong before, came. Came up to him and like whisper some prayers into his ears to like remember him of the Almighty. I see all those hidden smiles. err. I hold my unsatisfaction deep down. Never to burst. Later once i was like really sure that Mamu was doing okay. i left to the waiting sofas to chit chat with Daddy. He was so engross with his photo taking game that he never layan me. So bored larh sey. I was preparing myself for the worst larh can?! i don't want to hold Mamu much longer if it's like gonna hurt him more. At only 63years. I love him so dearly. That deep down i never want him to go. But the Almighty loves him more like no other. So i prayed for the best. Even if the Almighty was to take him whenever now, i prayed for the simpliest way. Never hurting him in any form. And i really hope what he had gone thru for his last living days,were enough to pay for his wrongdoings for the pass 63years of his life. I prayed for him to be blessed. And beg for the Almighty's mercy towards him.
the machine that closely monitored Mamu Sam's heartbeat.And it proves to be very weak.
It was 4:47am. I was still waiting at the hospital.
Mamu was warded at ward 47 bed 39.
This is my no. 10 Mamu Yahya.My saviour. A true gangster.He's someone i respect so much cause he would risk his life just to save his family.He's never afraid to die.Cause he has nothing to lose.
My 5th Kala, Limah and her husband,Mamu Ali.
[ Before ]
[ Currently ]
my definition of love: " To love is to learn how to let go. "
And finally came Friday. It was like at...
Awesome. i went to visit Mamu Sam at the hospital around 2plus.There was nobody there unfortunately.So acompanied him till around 3plus.Later meeting Shyqah jewel at ITE simei entrance there.She just finished her soft ball tournament.And of coz larh she win larh okay?!We proceed to garden afterwards.
A video of my jewels and me doing our first ever sway cover.Its posted at youtube for the benefit of all though.This video really explained our outing.SPECTACULAR,right girls?
today was Amy dearest's 16th day,
"Happy birthday to you.you are born in the zoo.Zebra,Lions are your friends.And the monkey is you. *evil laughter.Ohh man! i love you much much. Hope you grow up into a elegant lady loved by all.May all your wishes come true darling. Just remember i will always be here no matter what happens."
the machine that closely monitored Mamu Sam's heartbeat.And it proves to be very weak. 
It was 4:47am. I was still waiting at the hospital. 
Mamu was warded at ward 47 bed 39. 
This is my no. 10 Mamu Yahya.My saviour. A true gangster.He's someone i respect so much cause he would risk his life just to save his family.He's never afraid to die.Cause he has nothing to lose.
"Happy birthday to you.you are born in the zoo.Zebra,Lions are your friends.And the monkey is you. *evil laughter.Ohh man! i love you much much. Hope you grow up into a elegant lady loved by all.May all your wishes come true darling. Just remember i will always be here no matter what happens."
